Hey. I'm back. but I don't think i can write anymore, I'm sorry. I've asked for a lot and I really appreciate you guys for waiting for me all the time.
So what happened to me for the past few months when I was gone... was a whole mess. I hit the lowest point of my life so far and I was so pressured into doing stuff I promised to do when school's over.
I had many goals to set for my summer vacation but I ended up doing nothing because I spent too much time overthinking or spiraling. I was constantly blaming myself for things I did, "I should've done better/I hate myself/What is wrong with me" and more pessimistic stuff.
I genuinely feel so burnt out. I can't focus or take care of myself properly, hell; I can't even sleep without crying at least once. I'm trying my best to wake up everyday and that feels so hard to do.
Two days ago, school started for me again and I can never promise you that I'll be posting here much. I'm sorry. I know you guys have been waiting for me for a long time. I just need a break from everything :)
Love you guys, so much. You've been my home for quite a while now. I've been through it all with you. I'll be reading your fanfics to cheer me up. Thanks for checking on me.
