J Blackwood

Having OCD is a bitch. This morning I had to use shower gel on my leg and wrists when they bumped something. Because of this, I missed the bus. Right now I feel like a failure, and I really want a hug but I can't hug anyone at home because of germs. I could hug someone at college but most people in my class prefer not to be hugged, and I would hate to make them uncomfortable. 
          
          Also, gender dysphoria is a bitch. I can't go to sleep without wearing a shirt because I hate looking at my bare chest, and I have to have a clean shirt, which I can't always find. Everything is just pain. My life is a failure. 

Happy Valentines Day ❤️
          
          Things have been difficult, but I'm still here. I don't know if I want to be, or if it'll stay that way, but for today, I am, and I love you. Cherish yourselves. 

I hope everyone is having a good day. Things have been hard lately, but I hope one day they'll be better. I hope one day I can be myself. 

As some of you may have noticed by now, I have deleted my Wayhaught book on here. I don't think I will be writing anything but oneshots on here from now on. 

I hope someone replies. 
          
          How do you write a book about love when you've never been in love? 

I'm contemplating leaving wattpad. Nickelodeon has bought the app and mature stories could be deleted, which is most of mine. You can find me on AO3 and Twitter under the same username. But this isn't definite, don't worry. But if my stories are going to be deleted or are removed, in will no longer write on this platform. But for now I'm here to stay. 

Hey. Just a warning, Nickelodeon has bought wattpad and any mature stories could be deleted without warning. Please back up your studies on other platforms, I recommend Google docs or AO3. 

Happy birthday

Hi everyone. Happy New Year  I know this year has been really hard with the pandemic and all, but I don't think it's been the worst year ever. Truthfully, I've met a really amazing human being this year. I love her so much and she's an amazing friend, and I hope she knows that. I hope that if 2020 wasn't your year, this one can be. ✨Keep fighting ✨
          
          Thank you to everyone who's loved me for me. I really love you guys. 

Hi everyone. I know most people don't read these, but just letting you know that it you're interested, I'm part of a Wynonna Earp roleplay on discord. My user is Shin Tsukimi #0307 if anyone wants to add me to learn more about the roleplay. Please feel free to join! It's going to be so fun to have everyone there