In your life, you may have read or heard a lot about motivation and positivity. Your friends and loved ones may have tried many times to help you stay motivated and positive, and for the time being, you may feel better. But the moment you become overwhelmed by overthinking or anything else, all that positivity and motivation can leave your mind completely.
You just feel different from how you had prepared yourself to feel. This can also add to your overthinking, making you think that you are being ungrateful again, even after receiving all that positivity. This can lead to self-degrading thoughts where you start blaming yourself for everything.
When difficult situations befall you, it's a time when your emotions can be at their peak. You try to keep them to yourself, and that can give those emotions more intensity, creating chaos inside you that is silently happening while people around you are completely unaware.
In that state, you may feel trapped by your emotions, which just want to erupt and create more chaos and destruction. And let me tell you something: you aren't losing a battle just because you couldn't stop those emotions, even after trying your best. What matters is that you attempted to control them. You fought until the very end, and that's what matters.
It's hard to stay positive all the time, but what matters is that after the storm clears, you try to stay composed even when you are looking at the destruction it left behind. Still, don't try to give up. You get up and do your best again.
Your emotions may overwhelm you sometimes, but that doesn't erase all the effort you have made. Give yourself credit for every time you tried to handle things better, even when it didn't go perfectly.
[If there is anything you want to share, something heavy on your mind, you can share it and feel a little lighter. Even if it takes paragraphs to type everything. You can use my board and think of it as your diary, only if you want to. You won't be judged.]