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"I cut as physical experimentation, if you will.
I look at the results to see if my previous ones have changed.
Mood is observed to examine whether, mentally, I have achieved to return to a state of homeostasis.
Dull, sad, and grey origin.
Origins like flowers which slip at my feet.
Soon it will change. Soon it will be in colours. Because everything, as I know, is falling to ashes.