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Perhaps, some things are best left forgotten, for now.
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* In the Background
"In the background.
"Like I could never be found.
"As if I could never make a sound.
"I was afraid of my reflection.
"All I could do was personal deflection.
"But you all gave me a place.
"Because of you I was able to learn things at my own pace.
"I know I'm different.
"But I have come to share your sentiment.
"That peace is the path.
"And not lashing out with your wrath.
"That was what she believed, didn't she?
"That was what she always tried to tell me.
"But I never did listen.
"And I committed a sin.
"I don't know what I was thinking.
"Leaving my friend behind.
"And I suffered the curse and I was blind.
"With all that anger, guilt and sadness that was haunting me forever.
"I couldn't wait for the cliff at the end of the river.
"As if reaching into a mirror."
"You've all pulled me out.
"Took me in with no doubts."
"Now I'm around.
"Seen or heard when I make a sound.
"I'm no longer in the background."
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Sensei.
And Haru.
And Mari, too.
Aru.
Kayoko.
And there's Mutsuki, woohoo.
Day after day after day they always try.
Past mornings and evenings and they all know why.
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* Extra Mile
"When I lost her, it was like a part of me shattered. Like I lost everything that mattered.
"I thought of what she could've gone through because of me. It haunts me eternally.
"I sometimes wished I shared such a fate. And that it could never be too late.
"But I couldn't bring myself to do it.
"I couldn't commit to the bit.
"I don't know if it was fear of death or pain.
"I guess a part of me was still sane.
"To fear stepping into such a world that it would render one's consciousness into a void of black where nothing exists and no life persists.
"I often felt that was the shade of the world I found myself in. With all my sins.
"The dead don't suffer.
“Maybe that was why I continued to be present. So I can live with the choices that I didn't believe I would have continued to resent.
"I didn't know if I didn't want to exist or not. I endlessly had such thoughts.
“To fade in like the background of a piece of scenery or to be part of the life that continued to exist before me.
"Then, one day, a girl I met served as a reminder.
"That in this world, kind souls still existed like her.
"Oh, it was familiar.
"It made me want to do better.
"But I wasn't myself.
"It was like I was someone else.
"All I could do was live in lies.
"To escape these haunting ties.
"And before I knew it, everything began to evolve.
"My problems were beginning to be solved.
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"A hand reached out to me despite knowing my actions were that of one unholy.
"She was a kind soul who held control.
"More then reached out to me.
"A sight I couldn't have ever foreseen.
"No longer did I feel like I was in the background.
"This was a place where I was allowed.
"Two other kind souls were always there for me.
"Though they would say I first made the effort, it could never match what they made me feel, which was comfort.
"Their hands were always out without a shroud of doubt.
"As if always eager to pull me out.
"Of the world that was my past.
"If I ever told the truth, would it last?
“They wanted me here.
“They held me dear.
“I can't do it.
“I'll commit to this bit.
"For once after so long, I found a place where I belonged.
"I'll never be able to make amends.
"But please, don't make this end.
"Let me stay with my friends.
"I'll never be able to atone.
"Just please don't leave me alone.
"For these smiles.
"I'll go the extra mile."
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Imagining the students of ADS in the view as if they were in an L2D helps their appearance and character come alive.
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"I really miss you, all my friends.
"I regret that it had to end.
"Wish I could see you all again.
"I took a step and used all my might.
"Stayed up, having sleepless nights.
"Promised I would make it right.
"I...
"I know.
"I know.
"I lost control.
"Oh no.
"Oh no.
"I'm not alone.
"I'm-not-alone...
"No matter where I go.
"It's following me home.
"I can't control myself.
"It's like I'm someone else.
"No matter where I go.
"I'm-not-alone...
"Like a puppet on a string.
"I'll do anything.
"Does anyone know who can end this?
"I can't control myself."
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"I'm just a whisper in her ear.
"Something no one else can hear.
"She'll spread and deliver more fear.”
"I'm the one behind the mask.
"Guiding her with every task.
"All that so that she can last.
"I...
"I know.
"I know.
"I'm-in-control.
"Oh no.
"Oh no.
"A terrified soul.
"I know.
"I know.
"No matter where she goes.
"I won't leave her alone.
"I can't control myself.
"It's like I'm someone else.
"No matter where I go.
"I'm-not-alone...
"Like a puppet on a string.
"I'll do anything.
"Does anyone know who can end this?
"I can't control myself."
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The end of A Doting Sensei is almost here.
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There were many that heard of her.
More that know who she currently is.
But there was only one that once knew the real her.
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* An ADS Thing with No Context
1. Sensei > PS68, Sisterhood, Valkyrie & Others
2. Aru > Mutsuki <> Kayoko > Haruka
2. Sakurako > Hinata > Mari <> Miya <> Arin
3. Kanna > Kirino <> Fubuki
4. Katou <> Minase <> Naomi
5. Sakura <> Ayame
6. Hoshino > Ayane <> Nonomi <> Shiroko <> Serika
7. Hina > Ako > Iori > Chinatsu
8. Hanako <> Hifumi <> Asuza <> Koharu
9. Tsurugi <> Hasumi > Ichika > Koharu
10. Sensei > Haruka Terror
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I mentioned this in one of my many random posts in this message board, but I'll say it again.
A Doting Sensei will reaching and having an ending.
It 100% won't have an ending that Chapter 5: A Dream or a Reality would imply/or build up to.
In fact, this ending might make the entire A Doting Sensei story "suck" due it not bringing everything together in the way Chapter 5 implied.
But, it still does bring everything together in a sense regardless.
Chapter 4: Step-by-Step was supposed to be the last chapter anyway, in terms of the original story that I wanted to tell, save for some "untouched" scenarios that would involve Mari that danced around in my mind.
But they were too "complicated" to touch upon.
Safe to say I'm really just writing this story for myself at this point and that's okay.
I wouldn't wish to force anyone to read what is essentially a Glazing Fic of my favorite Blue Archive characters.
It's still strange that the Characters Bios have more upvotes than the latest ADS chapter, A Sister's Predicament, as of writing this.
A Sister's Predicament has 1 vote.
While the Characters Bios have 3.
Either bots or some people for some reason want information fed to them instead reading the story to gather it as it flows along.
But, again, it do be like that.
Me own Glaze Fic.