THE HIVE QUEEN :D

EVERYONE GO FOLLOW @totallynotnato RN CUZ SHES AWESOME AND BEAUTIFUL 
          
          (I may or may not be biased cuz she's my gf BUT STILL GO DO IT SHES LOSING FOLLOWERS AND DOESNT DESERVE THAT)

Heyy I miss u :(

Ye... No.. I think my friend aim is cheating on Rosa w a girl named Kat.. They're clearly matching and are following each other.. Idk what to do.. Rosa was a very good person for aim.

I wasn't going to make a post on this, but I've been thinking a lot about something and I need to get it out of my head.
          
          Today, my therapist called me. This happens at my dad's house, she'll call me randomly for a 10-20min check in and give me a new challenge for homework. She asked how I was doing, and I was honest with her. I told her everything that's happened since her last call a WHILE ago and told her how I felt about it all. She helped me work through some of the mental loops I'd been running myself in, but the homework she gave me has me a little bit... well, uncomfortable. 
          
          Therapy homework isn't supposed to be comfortable, I know, but... she told me that while I was explaining things to her, I used a lot of words that made things that were factual to me sound like dismissible opinions. She asked if I do that a lot, purposely make my own point of view, my own beliefs, sound stupid and dismissible. I said yes. She asked why, and I told her because then I have less chance of getting in trouble, I'm more likely to blend in or be accepted if I'm willing to fit whatever mold you want me in. 
          
          She was quiet for a minute, and then she gave me my homework. She wants me to write down my brutally honest opinions on everyone important in my life in my journal, and bring it in on Tuesday. It's supposed to be a small, low-stakes practice for learning to be adamant in my opinions and the things I see as fact, but it's really making me think really hard on what I truly think of the people I see as caretakers, as saviors, as enemies, as friends. 
          
          I don't think my opinion of anybody is truly what I make it to be. And that... scares me. It scares me that I'm realizing I've been angry at everyone I love and cherish for so long, but I only recently learned how to even truly feel anger. I don't know what to do with these thoughts besides write them, and that doesn't really feel... influential enough?

Chat PLEASE if you have Twitter/X can you go to my account and look at my art? It's all object show stuff, but yesterday I finished a c2bc art that I actually ADORE and am really proud of and it's my least popular... I don't mean to sound like the person that depends on online affirmation, but I'd really genuinely appreciate the support if you could give me a like on that art - it's the day 12 of Object Art Advent one. Thank you in advance!!
          
          https://x.com/Bug_A_Rug01?t=S10ZERotjfn3V78imq5S9Q&s=09

Chat did i just spend my entire day fixated on c2bc and forget to have me Daily Meaningful Conversation (trademark) with my gf... welp, I have some apologizing to do tmrw (she'll prolly be chill with it, she's an object show fan too)

!!C2BC spoilers!!
          
          I want to give a brief but very sincere apology to the C2BC fandom, specifically the firepound fans-
          
          I started watching this show THIS MORNING, and I JUST finished ep11, and OH. MY. GOD. I have NEVER, and I mean NEVER EVER, wanted to rip as many objects of the same show apart. Beer Keg is the worst in my opinion. But Glitchy, fucking SNOOPING IN ON POUND AND FIREBALL, and then MANIPULATING Pound into voting poor Corky off so that fucking ASSHOLE got to stay on... I WANNA FUCKING RIP THEIR SOULS APART PIECE BY PIECE RAHHHHHH-
          
          and that's not even MENTIONING the other drama shit going on. I hated Service Bell day one for being pushy and stuck-up and bossy and rude, but STEALING Mirror's gift and giving it to Yearbook HERSELF?! That's a new low on the petty radar. At least Beer Keg had the guts to straight-up punch Fireball. 
          
          at least Fireball wasn't fully eliminated, I would have genuinely cried. I've never been so IMMEDIATELY hooked on a ship. Sure, I'm biased bc I knew going in that it was very popular, but I did a good job avoiding spoilers and did NOT see that kiss coming but like- FIREPOUND CANON AHJDFHDFSGJHFBHSJFDHSJDFGSDJFHSJDFJHJDFJKSD

*randomly starts getting greek god tiktoks*
          *gets one showing how to figure out which one is near you*
          *starts feeling a feeling like i'm being almost constantly watched*
          *feels randomly comforted while crying last night*
          *sees a tiktok that says apollo, hermes, and aphrodite are claiming a lot of ppl*
          "fuck it, why not"
          *does the check thing*
          *hermes has been hanging out with me for the last few days*
          "WHAT."
          
          *five mins later*
          "yo do u want an altar hermes?"
          "hell yea"
          
          *fast forward twenty minutes when I don't have anything for an altar and i tried making a paper lavender flower but it didn't work*
          
          "I don't have anything for u, im sorry hermes... ):"
          "guys she's poor"
          "HERMES-"

Omg guys I lit love my gf she's so sweet and nice and no one is ever allowed to hurt her-

Chat I kinda wanna make an object show-