Jess Bynum

I'm back everyone!

Can You please read my story? I've just written 1 Chap. Tell me IF I should continue????
          

Hello, just a quick thank you for following me. 

Funny how when you're breaking inside no one notices. Then you slip up and show the pain on the outside. It seems like everyone notices, but does nothing to help. I'm at the point where I don't care anymore. I had it all...a family that loved me, in fact I had two. This family in Hawaii loved me as their own, then my adoptive family ruined it. They made them hate me and now I have no one. I made the Hawaiian family hate me in a way...the worst part is I now have no one. Funny how you go from having everything to having nothing in just a short time. I don't know what I'm going to do...I just needed to get this out. I'm sorry I took up your time while you read this.

Fear
          
          What will they say to me today? Will I cry?
          Am I really fat and ugly like they say?
          Should I even continue to try?
          It's like I have a debt to these bullies that I must pay...
          
          I want to quit school, but that's just not what is right.
          I will take this pain,quietly, I shall not tell,
          even though on the inside I am breaking, not alright.
          On the outside, I am just an empty shell.
          
          I'm paralyzed by the fear of shame,
          this is all just so wrong.
          To these bullies my whole existence is just a game.
          I hate myself, but I must be strong.
          
          I have to make my momma proud,
          even though she doesn't understand or care.
          I want to hide and stay away from the cruel crowd,
          but it's just not possible,it isn't fair.
          
          The teachers hear, but never intervene.
          I'm just another annoying child;
          another vine in the ravine.
          I just wish they would tell my what I did.
          
          I guess I have to have hope,
          that one day someone will be kind.
          Maybe I am destined for this not to end, learn to cope
          True happiness and sweet bliss I hope to find.
          
          I must say this, before it's too late,
          and I am nothing but a lost cause.
          Lost to my destiny, and that cruel fate.
          only to fall apart,be put back together with old tape and gauze.
          
          Maybe it's time to make my own path,
          and do what I feel I should.
          I must find myself, or fell torments wrath.
          It's a sheer desire,desire to succeed, it's a matter of  would.
          
          Will I cower down,
          or stand strong on my own?
          Resting proudly atop my head; lies a queens crown,
          proving to others, it's okay to stand alone.

Tell me what you think about this...

Hello beautiful, I'm always here if you want to talk. I will never judge you. Stay strong and I believe in you. 
          Never give up!
          ~anonymous   
          <3

If you are close friends with Jess or if you want to talk to someone please text this number: (901) 509 0669.  -Monica

Word of the day: Temporary
          
          Isn't everything?
          Even life?
          Think of five things that are temporary and comment them below.

*bullies* my bad