*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

I'm gonna have an experiment. I won't say it first, see how long it'll take you to say it first

Right when I start trying.

I cant have kids when im like this.
          
          "why does mom have to lock herself in  her room all the time? I miss her"
          "kids at school make fun of moms legs."
          "classmates sexualize mom and she hates it"
          
          "why does mom go crazy?
          why can I hear her screaming over and over?
          sobbing, crying
          losing it."
          
          I cant ever have kids. I'll always be fucked. every situation I'm in will always be fucked.
          
          braydan was right, I'll be my own downfall every single time.

This is a manic episode. I'm unsafe.

I hate being so angry
          I wanna be fixed.
          
          I'm too fucked up to help at all in any way unless you want brutal honesty

I love you. I love you I love you

Bro fuckin unsent project is a bitch wdym only one in 24 hrs

So the smart thing for me to do here would be to disinclude myself bc I get involved in things that I shouldn't bc I have a savior complex, but also I gotta be empathetic and not hurt you so I'm stuck between like distancing myself or staying and I think staying will rot me from the inside out bc of all of this going on by distancing will rot you from the inside out and i don't know

if you're gonna post discreet shit abt me, just fucking say it, please. 
          
          i only do it as well because you do it. i wouldn't otherwise.

hey okay so life hack:when you're losing your shit, go outside. drink water. 
          
          then you are no longer mentally ill!!!