I was known as DafuqAmIEven or NWCurlii in 2019-2021. I made this account to kind of ghost across Wattpad and look for the remnants of the past.
I'm nostalgic and yet looking for closure. I always thought my time spent on the internet was okay, or that the concerning parts were funny or a canon event, but I was consuming content that equally disturbed minors in my age bracket were writing, and it normalised horrific things I'd never think of being okay with now. It took nearly 6-7 years yet I'm unsure of how out of touch I am with everyone still. I really really hope I didn't influence or corrupt anyone as a teenager but I may have. I don't remember things well.
This stuff wasn't okay, I understand why everyone has left with almost no trace. I feel sick yet nostalgic for my time in the CH fandom, but I wasn't well. None of us were well. Yet I miss you all, I hope you're okay. I hope you've found healing and that you have accepted yourself.
