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@Harry_Cobra_Things my moms a drug attic I haven't seen her for 3yrs for all ik she could be dead in a ditch,my dad is bipolar acholic with anger issuse, I got all my siblings ripped away from me,I was mentally and physically abused for 8 years of my life, I can keep friends because I'm not good enough, ppl see me as cold because I don't have a great time with showing emotion because I turned it off and now it's stuck, I get walked over all the time and I apologize, I'm used and then left on the curb, I'm stuck in my messed up head and I cant get out I'm stuck theres a fucking chain around my ankle I'm stuck, I hold everything in and I want to burst but Ik I will get attacked for it, I took care of two kids from when I was 5-9yrs old, I had to make dinner everynight for me and my sisters bc my dad and ex step mom were out doing whatever, they had a horrible relationship so all i heard was fighting and sometimes it got physically, I have flashback all the time of the yelling and glass breaking bc there throwing stuff, I hate myself my body, my personality but I dont show it, I have no one no one its so hard pushing through life with suicidal thoughts and self harming myself