So the reason why I went under a different name in my profile @Rowaelin96, is because of the things I wrote in Life is a Bitch. It's very personal to me and I was not sure that I wanted to share my story. I was still ashamed of all that had happened and was trying to work through it all.
I am no longer ashamed. Nothing that happened to me was my fault, I did not handle it well, but I know now, that, that was the only way my younger self could deal with it all.
I do not blame young me. There are of course days where I think what if, maybe thing's could have been different if I had done some things differently.
But it happened, I cannot change the past, all I can do is, heal and live my life to the fullest.
I love my younger self, she was strong and I'm proud of her. She made me the woman I am today and I love me.