I was really happy to have nijiro murakami on my fyp again until I saw what it was about.
Why, just why.
Nijiro was my favorite japanese actor. I watched every single one of his movies and shows. I watched all his gaming streams even if I didnt understand japanese. Before aib s3, I hoped, l prayed that he would be on s3. I held on to the last bit of hope that he would show up for even one scene, and I screamed my heart out when he did. I listened to his radio show. On the times when he would never post, I waited. Even when he would post the smallest update on his story, it would make my whole day. It didn't had to be his face, him posting about a movie he's interested in, an update on one of his favorite games, or anything at all was enough to make me smile. He was such a big part of my life, and I've defended him no matter what. But this. This I cannot defend. I'm still hoping that this isn't true, or this is a twisted version of the truth, because as much as I want to, I can't seem to let him go. I know this sounds really wrong, but I'm the type of person who finds it very hard to let go of someone, especially someone who has helped me become a better person and someone who I have loved with my whole heart for years. I've always been like this.
For the past couple hours, this is all I can think about. I'm trying to clear my mind off, but no matter what I do, I can't shake off the pain.
I don't support his actions and I am really disappointed in him. I'm going to wait for his statement, and hopefully we can get the full story.
Im sorry if I worded anything wrong, I was never good with words when I vent, but I tried my best. I've been keeping my thoughts to myself for what feels like forever even though it hasn't been a day. So thanks for reading, for anyone who did. Have a great day.
