Itz_Yukoo

You know, when I post a chapter, I eagerly wait to get comments. I usually post before bed, so when I wake up, the first thing I do right after eating breakfast is to check my Wattpad. When I see no notifications, I think "Well, it's only been a few hours. They could've been busy or not noticed that I posted something!" 
          
          But after a day it gets kinda... Idk how to describe it. Hopeless? That I'm waiting for something that won't come? For attention I've received for months and now it's suddenly gone and I feel bad about it? ... I have no idea how that sounds or if it makes me look like a selfish person, which I probably am to some degree because everyone is flawed.
          
          I'm not trying to make y'all feel guilty or to worry you. I don't fucking know why am I even writing this, to be honest. Maybe because I just feel like I needed to finally say that what's been bothering me for WEEKS ever since chapters of my most popular fic started to get less than 40 comments.
          
          Well, nothing can be popular forever. I understand that, and I need to admit that no matter how it hurts me. Because who would want to read over 100 chapters of some cringey chatfic? Let's be real, chat. This is the ONLY recognizable thing about my account. The FUCKING CRINGE CRK CHATFIC. 
          
          No, I'm not mad. No, I don't need help. No, DON'T BE WORRIED. I'm fine, just tired (... and probably need to take some quizzes. Won't say which though)
          
          Good night/day/afternoon/evening/morning/arifryer/potato/butter! >:3
          
          

It feels like I'm talking to myself and writing everything for myself too.... I don't quite like it... 
          
          I keep getting less and less comments, less people are interested in reading chapters of my other fics because of course a writer only gets recognized for their most popular work
          
          Many questions are in my head sometimes, some worse and some better. Why am I even writing if almost nobody reads it anyway? 
          
          Why am I venting? No one will probably read it anyway... Am I bad for assuming that? I know y'all care, to some degree. And if you don't, well, I don't mind it. I'm just one of the millions of Wattpad writers after all. Who would care?
          
          Heh. So stupid of me, it's kinda late and I'm tired. No, I don't need a break. In fact, it'd make things even worse. I want to write, I have so many ideas, but... Sometimes I feel like I don't have readers.
          
          I'm not blaming anyone. I'm not trying to insult anyone, and if you feel hurt by what I said, I apologize. 
          
          

And ofc nobody gives a fuck because no one even reads these messages 

I WAS SO TERRIFIED FOR A SEC CUZ I THOUGHT I LOST ACCESS TO MY WATTPAD ACCOUNT 
          
          NEVER MESSING WITH USERNAMES AGAIN, SCREW THAT SHIT

What the FUCK do you mean there's NO FANFICS IN THE CURRANTPASTEL TAG????? 

Oh nvm it changed ^^

Yo is it just an issue with my phone or did the name really didn't change 

Changing profile pics once a week cuz I can't decide which one should I have, I hope it's not an issue :3
          
          I was also thinking of changing my nickname to Itz_Yukoo cuz that's my username on AO3 and on any other social platforms, so...
          
          Let's say bye to "Kicia_Lilapl" (I made this one when I was 11) 

I have no idea what came over me but I just wrote a fic with yandere!Pavlova Cookie on AO3 and I have no regrets. 
          
          Making another chapter of it because I love the idea 

MISTLE ISN'T MAD AT ME ❤️❤️❤️
          YAYYYYYYYY