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How am I suppose to cope when I'm somebody else's shadow and everyone else is their own person, suffocating in my own mind, drowning in a pool of blood, and every time my heart beats, it's pushing me further away from the surface.

We're not real but to ourselves we are. We believe in the thought of a higher power, is it because we need reassurance that we weren't a mistake, so that it's not our fault when the world starts tumbling down, crushing us with full force.

They say love makes the world go round but, that isn't true and I hate that saying. We were born from two people, we develop and grow in one, we either have another friend inside or we're alone, and the thought of us telling each other the only survival in this world is love is wrong.

Being a shadow is lonely, following even when I want to break free and become my own person. Stuck. I've fallen so far I'm being pulled from every angle, dark and scary. I think death is the only exit but the fear of that haunts my mind, behind the body I'm supposed to be in is dragging me along because I can't take over, I can't. Decisions cross over like a rainbow, but what if I follow it and find out it's gone... Showing me that I couldn't do it, I couldn't escape.

I don't want to please you anymore, I relised now I have no dream...
          In this world I have no purpose, I have no destiny.
          I'm confused... What do I do, I feel like I know ut what if I'm wrong taking the incorrect route, buliding unecessary debt.
          How do I find out wheather I want to do actually do it or it's because I don't feel like I'm good at anything else...
          Will I ever know?

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Trapped inside someone who's not you, caged in because the body doesn't move how the mind wants.
          
          Trying to free myself but my free wheel has spun it's turn, I'll be turning and you'll keep missing...
          
          Decisions drown me, causing chaos to the cells amd malfunctioning my will to move.
          
          Devoted to not trying, dedicated to the expectations you sined upon me, captured by the words you've feed me.
          
          And It Makes Me Wonder, Should I Even Try.
          
          
          - Caprice Afflick