Finally, four months have passed but It felt like forever.
During those months, I was stuck in a constant depressive state. I had no motivation to do just about anything, well aside from proper hygiene and cleaning of course. It's that I just suddenly lost interest in the things that I loved or even craved to do, drawing, working out, socializing and having fun or everything else. I just lost it all. And not to mention, I was stuck in my filthy habits once more, constant smoking and drinking. Looking back now, I can only describe it as utter despair and a constant feeling of ennui that always follows me even now.
Two months later, I then began to embark on my spiritual journey, began to dwelve deeper into the spiritual stuff, and a week later, finally had the courage to open the Bible. After months worth of despair, I finally felt the burden at my shoulders gone in an instant, I felt refreshed.
Currently, I still suffer from my smoking addiction, but I'm planning on limiting it to the point that I'll barely even do it anymore, quite ambitious but I know it'll work because God will make it happen in his will.
And yeah, glad to say this that I'm back to writing again, even with a broken arm lmao.