for some reason it's not letting me comment on your book so here you go <3
I think it all starts with knowing that you are loved. I struggle with that too. sometimes I just remind myself that, whatever I see, is clearly not what they do. whatever flaws I see are okay because I see flaws in others and yet I still love them. it's okay not to love yourself all the time but tell yourself others do. for whatever reason they really do. I tell myself that they're still here. one day they might not be but that's okay because right now they are here and they do care. notice the small things. you don't have to be flat out told you're loved to be loved. you don't need grand gestures to be loved. the people who love you will do little things to show it. you may not feel incredibly loved by many, but there are people there who do. ask yourself, do you love others? why? despite all their flaws, do you still love them? now, do you trust others to love you too? I've found it a lot easier to believe others love me when I realize how easy it is to love others
feeling loved is completely different, though. you may know people love you but truly feeling it is something you have to allow yourself to do. don't plague yourself with doubtful thoughts on how they feel. wondering will change nothing about them. it will change you if you let it. let yourself appreciate the small things people do for you. love doesn't have to be a grand, long thing. someone can show you love by saying hello, asking how you are. I can't see this a lot and it's hard to accept that yes, people do love me, but I've found ways that allows myself to feel their kindness. it's incredibly unique on how each person feels loved so this might not be helpful in any way
sorry if this was just one long, boring ramble that used repetitive wording but it's hard to put my thoughts into words, especially when I myself struggle to do what you're asking for help with. I love you though and I hope you know that <33
