cw// rant, mentions of self harm, suicide, eating disorders, abuse, just me talking about my trauma anonymously
everyone talks ab childhood trauma but noone ever mentions adolescent trauma.
my childhood was fine, it was great. aside from some mean boys at school, i had no problems.
it was once i became a teenager that everything started going wrong.
my parents started arguing seriously, and involving me and my brother.
my dad got really ill and spent two months in hospital, and still isnt completely better even after five years.
my dad took my mum to court after he took mine and my brothers passports and gave them to his friend because he thought our mum was trying to kidnap us.
my parents started making me translate the other parents phone calls to see what they were doing.
my brother started becoming physically and emotionally abusive.
i tried to off myself three times aged twelve.
ive been self harming on and off since i was eleven.
at fifteen i started smoking and drinking when i was depressed so i could try to feel better.
at sixteen, im still engaging in all of my bad habits, including body issues and disordered eating from when i was eleven.
and yet i still dont feel as if i can call myself “mentally ill” because i have no formal diagnosis.
