When I say my best friend will never know how much I love her I mean it. We've been friends for years and have rarely ever kept secrets from each other, but this past year we've started to talk less and less. I shouldn't be surprised, I should have figured this would happen, we're both getting older and have responsibility, and soon, she'll be going off to college and I, I will probably be left behind. I just hope that when she goes, I've told her how I feel. I wish that she knew how much I really love her, even if she couldn't return the feelings I just want her to know how I feel. I'll miss her so damn much and every day that we don't talk I worry about her. I want her to be safe and it hurts my heart knowing that some day I need to grow out of this childish crush but I can't. I love her, more than anything, and it tears me apart being away from her. I just want her to know that I'll be here for her forever, and I'll love her forever, no matter what. She's the greatest thing that's ever happened to me. But I can't tell her. I'm too scared. I'm affraid of rejection, I'm terrified she won't want to be my friend anymore. I suppose that's how things go, but I really wish I could tell her. She has the password to an old wattpad account and I know she visits it occasionally, so I'm hoping that she sees this so it'll make things easier for me.