~Lexi~

when you come out as ftm and your mum buys you the most feminine things she can just to let you know that she doesn't accept you and never will

I hate myself for being alive for this long... why don't I have the fucking balls to end it all like I want to?

I made one little mistake and I lost everything.... I tried moving on..... I tried to get over her and accept it but I can't and I don't think I ever will..... I've lost the love of my life... only within the last few months did I notice that and I hate myself for not realizing sooner.... God I hate myself so fucking much
                    
          I don't know what I can do anymore.... I break down every night because I lost her. I need her. I need to be with her.... but I can't... I ruined that all because I miss read a text message.... I've given up. I can't handle the guilt or the pain... If she's gone I want to be there with her
              I need to be with my Mariposa.... I need Dylan

I've lost my baby. I couldn't help her....... I'm done. Bye guys 
          
          -Ethan

Protect my heart.... Bullshit. Don't tease me expecting me not to get hurt 

Why won't people let me kill myself? Wtf is the point of staying? 

Ever have that one mistake you made in the past that changed everything yet if you had been just a little bit more aware you could have stopped it from ever happening? 
          
          Sorry Dylan xx

anyone free? I'm lonely and wanna talk to peoples

I kinda maybe just reopened a deep cut....

just got new shoes today.....only to have my dog tear them up and I get yelled at because I was sleeping and didn't know he had them