Mouse, She/Her (Hiatus)

Wish I was active more often but I just don’t think Wattpad is quite the fit for me. I like reading here though. I feel like I’m just on TikTok more.

I am back! Not full time, sadly, since the every day entries were too much and Im currently busy helping Callum and Colton with some work on their farm, but I am not sick anymore, which is great! Just the occaisonal dust causing and asthma flareup.

I'm not back full time, since I'm still recuperating, but I sometimes wonder how it is for other people with depression. Like I know mental health is a spectrum, and Callum, Colton, and I all deal with depression differently (we all have it diagnosed, an unfortunate coincidence). So I oftentimes think about how other people with mental health struggles like depression, anxiety, ADHD, etc. see the world.

Going on hiatus due to family problems and health issues.

Iiiiiiiit's SPOOKY SEASON!

I haven't been journalling because well, first I ended up getting sick (I blame Colton, who has the worst immune system of anyone I've ever met and likely gave Callum and I the flu as well), and secondly I got swamped with schoolwork. But hey! Learning how to do acrylic nails, still on a model, in class and that's really fun. I've always been more of a history-ELA type person, but I'm actually really liking cosmetology science and I look forward to it now! I also got to spend some time with some of my friends from my old school since just Callum and I go to the career center for school. We all went out and got some boba at a local cat cafe before we went to go ice skating, something I'm not too good at. But it was all really fun!

What a chaotic school week. Anyways, I'm super excited because Callum and I are going to go apple picking and horse riding with his twin brother, Colton, and their family on their family farm. Colton and Callum are too big to ride their POA, but I'm really excited because Spotty is the bestest pony! Colton and Callum each have their own horses (haha), a QH and an appendix. Colton does dressage so he also has an Andalusian too, but he doesn't ride her on trail rides.

My best friends and I started watching this old anime called Shiki. My best friend, Callum, well, his older stepsister is going to a four year university out of state and she said he could look through her old DVDs. On the other note, I changed schools since I was on the waiting list for my local career center. Starting yesterday, I am officially studying cosmetology science! I'm still not sure what I want to do when I'm older, but maybe being a hairdresser is a career I'd enjoy? Otherwise, the cosmetology program at school is also business aligned so at least I'll get experience with business ownership practices. And the best part? Callum got accepted too! Though he started at the actual start of the school year. He's studying  in the electrical program since he wants to be a pyrotechnician or an engineer. He's certainly smarter than me, ahaha.

Ever just have a moment where you were ABOUT to sleep, but then thought you might have homework? So then you call your friend and ask and he says no. But you still feel like your forgetting something. So you scan the house to look for things you may have forgotten, but can't find anything. So you come up to your room only to see the only thing you forgot was the library book you were supposed to return last week set out just so you WOULDN'T forget it? Yeah. That's where I am tonight. One would think journalling like this would help me remember things.

So I got bored and busted out the sewing kit last night. I'm halfway through making a new skirt. I've found it's easier on me to wear skirts because my waist is 24 inches but then my hips jump to 30. This makes pants that aren't elastic a pain to fit, and honestly I just prefer dresses and skirts. But nowadays it seems like those body-tight skirts are in fashion and I just don't think they look good on my body, so I've taken to sewing myself some simple skirts when I've got the excess fabric.