CandyDustBunnie

 ⚠️ trigger warning: mental health, mention of suicidal thoughts, depression etc.
          I think I should preface this by saying I have borderline personality disorder (BPD), and it’s been a struggle to say the least. I used my fanfics to vent about my life but I’ve lost motivation for everything years ago which is why I have updated any of my fanfics in years. I used to be excited and happy to write my fanfics, but depression has sucked the happiness out of. I’ve been suicidal my whole life, and I wish that was an exaggeration. I’m 23 now and I feel like I’m 13 again, struggling to find joy in the small things again. I went to therapy, tried being on meds, and they helped, but unfortunately I just got used to them and they stopped being as effective. 
          
          Sometimes I think I should at least finish writing my books for everyone to enjoy before I die, but that’s still not enough motivation to actually write. I feel like none of my stories are good or creative enough. I haven’t even opened this app in months. Life has been chaotic to say the least and supposedly it’s supposed to get easier once your brain fully develops (which happens around the ages of 25-27). So for the time being, that’s the only reason why I haven’t done anything yet. I still have some hope that things will get better.

I created a new YouTube channel, and I’ve managed to remember most of the songs from the playlist I’ve created. If anyone’s interested in having the playlist for my fanfics my username on YouTube is the same as it is here on Wattpad

Disclaimer about most of my stories
          In my stories the love interest is obsessive/ possessive of reader, the amount varies depending on the character. For example Shaun Murphy from The Good Doctor isn't going to be as possessive as Jerome Valeska from Gotham. I think it's important for me to say that the extreme side of this obsessive love is being romanticized in my stories and not something you should want in a real relationship. Unless you are willing to make them get therapy and help them be a better person

When I edit my books on my phone the formatting is wrong, but then when I use my laptop the formatting looks even worse. I don't know why it does this I just hope everyone sees it correctly.