Hi everyone, I've been gone all of 2020 and to be honest it's not the best year. This year a lot has happened in our world. It happened so suddenly that processing it can be hard. On 12/31/19 I said to everyone I would update and had new projects coming out. None of that happened. I couldn't find myself doing any writing or publishing any work. I took down all my books cause I didn't feel proud of the stuff I put out there. That I wasn't trying hard or didn't put effort into my work. A lot has happened in my personal life. I went backwards when I was trying to move forward. As cliché this sounds, there is always a light. Even when you absolutely believe that everything is over, that's not true. You are never alone. I may not know you but, you shouldn't give up. We might not know each other but, I care about you. You deserve to be here as much as everyone else. Thinking about yourself and your well being isn't and never will be selfish. Everyday give yourself a compliment like "I look nice today". Do something nice for yourself. Recently my sibling told me that they were scared of growing old & death. That they may forget/lose everything. They told my family that they didn't want to lose us. I told them this and I want you guys to also know this too, to never take life for granted and never let it go by. Take every moment in and be there. Don't worry about the time you have left. Be in the moment cause you won't ever be in it again. I fully believe everyone deserves to feel some kind of love before they die. Either from themselves, someone else, or from an object. I love you guys whether you're someone I know personally, or not, or you're someone from the future reading this. I love you. You matter and please don't forget that. There will always be more good in this world. There is always hope and things will get better. Maybe not now but, it will get better later. I hope to see/talk to you guys soon and happy new year to everyone everywhere. Love you and take care.