Hello , I’m a friend of Tiger. I just wanted to say that first and foremost that you are NOT an idiot. Language and grammar, wether you speak it or not, is a tough thing to get the hang of. What matters is that you/we keep trying and understand the intentions behind the words/phrases.
Also, I understand that things are unbelievably painful with your family, and it’s ok to not be ok all the time, or even every day of the week. What matters is that we don’t give up on ourselves and focus on healing, whatever form it may take. Because it CAN be done no matter how deep in pain you are; know that above anything and everything else: You *can* and/or *will* heal. And when you do you’ll be better than before.
You’ve done a bang up job by writing an ongoing book. I don’t know if it’s a hobby or to express yourself, but the arts, literary and/or drawing, is more helpful and healthy than people realize. They’re not masterpieces because they look good, they become masterpieces because they’re sincere and from our cores, and because of that they’re relatable or sympathetic. That’s why I believe that if you truly enjoy doing this then this book is gonna be fantastic. :)