@Cannibal_friend I feel that. I've found, that if I write for myself, and know no one else will see it, I feel more excited to write.
I can write what I want, whenever I want. It can be horrid, it can be an absolute dumpster fire, but who cares? It's for my eyes only.
What's probably stopping you, like it did me, is being paralyzed by the question of, "Would someone else like it?" Or "What will other people think of this?" So having a seperate book, an outlet, away from the books with expectations, can get you on the road to healing from writer's block. I hoped this helped!
-A fellow writer