(Might delete this later, so read it while it's up)
Hey guys, I'm having a really rough night so if you could keep me in your prayers tonight it would mean a lot, but you don't have to, that's alright. Its just getting really tough, I'm not sure I can do it anymore. I've tried, I really have, if I would've known growing up was this hard I would have never wished to be older on that birthday years ago. I feel like I don't have anything I can hold onto, everything leaves or is going to leave... I just wish I could have someone I trust opening up to.. Opening up is like talking to a cop, you know? Everything can and will be held against you. I'm not sure how much longer I'll make it, i'm scared. What will happen to me... A few nights ago I cried so hard, I cried myself to sleep and when I woke up my eyes were red, like blood shot.. What's that supposed to mean? And I had a moment tonight where I cried to much, and so hard, my heart ached, my chest was literally hurting so much I started to cry because of the pain. My head started to hurt, and my eyes burned, oh they burned so bad. Why does this keep happening? Is this the sign of the end? I've always been afraid if death, and dreaded it but has it came for me this soon in life? Even though I'm having a rough time, I am not sure I'm ready to go just yet. Luckily I was by myself and was able to get it all out, I did have my rabbit with me and he is so sweet, man he is my best friend I have no clue what I'll do when he's gone.. We've been though so much together, he sits by me the while time I was having a moment every now and then nudging my arm. He's the sweetest and I'll love him till my last breath. He will he in my 7 minutes, I'm not sure how much time I have left with him though, he's pretty old so we just gotta make the moments count!
Anyway, please have a happy thanksgiving!