Cant_Kill_Me

(Might delete this later, so read it while it's up) 
          	
          	Hey guys, I'm having a really rough night so if you could keep me in your prayers tonight it would mean a lot, but you don't have to, that's alright. Its just getting really tough, I'm not sure I can do it anymore. I've tried, I really have, if I would've known growing up was this hard I would have never wished to be older on that birthday years ago. I feel like I don't have anything I can hold onto, everything leaves or is going to leave... I just wish I could have someone I trust opening up to.. Opening up is like talking to a cop, you know? Everything can and will be held against you. I'm not sure how much longer I'll make it, i'm scared. What will happen to me... A few nights ago I cried so hard, I cried myself to sleep and when I woke up my eyes were red, like blood shot.. What's that supposed to mean? And I had a moment tonight where I cried to much, and so hard, my heart ached, my chest was literally hurting so much I started to cry because of the pain. My head started to hurt, and my eyes burned, oh they burned so bad. Why does this keep happening? Is this the sign of the end? I've always been afraid if death, and dreaded it  but has it came for me this soon in life? Even though I'm having a rough time, I am not sure I'm ready to go just yet. Luckily I was by myself and was able to get it all out, I did have my rabbit with me and he is so sweet, man he is my best friend I have no clue what I'll do when he's gone.. We've been though so much together, he sits by me the while time I was having a moment every now and then nudging my arm. He's the sweetest and I'll love him till my last breath. He will he in my 7 minutes, I'm not sure how much time I have left with him though, he's pretty old so we just gotta make the moments count! 
          	
          	Anyway, please have a happy thanksgiving! 

poopyface23456

@Cant_Kill_Me No problem, im happy to help :)
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Cant_Kill_Me

@StrongForEverlark thank you! May God continue to bless you and your family. 
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Cant_Kill_Me

(Might delete this later, so read it while it's up) 
          
          Hey guys, I'm having a really rough night so if you could keep me in your prayers tonight it would mean a lot, but you don't have to, that's alright. Its just getting really tough, I'm not sure I can do it anymore. I've tried, I really have, if I would've known growing up was this hard I would have never wished to be older on that birthday years ago. I feel like I don't have anything I can hold onto, everything leaves or is going to leave... I just wish I could have someone I trust opening up to.. Opening up is like talking to a cop, you know? Everything can and will be held against you. I'm not sure how much longer I'll make it, i'm scared. What will happen to me... A few nights ago I cried so hard, I cried myself to sleep and when I woke up my eyes were red, like blood shot.. What's that supposed to mean? And I had a moment tonight where I cried to much, and so hard, my heart ached, my chest was literally hurting so much I started to cry because of the pain. My head started to hurt, and my eyes burned, oh they burned so bad. Why does this keep happening? Is this the sign of the end? I've always been afraid if death, and dreaded it  but has it came for me this soon in life? Even though I'm having a rough time, I am not sure I'm ready to go just yet. Luckily I was by myself and was able to get it all out, I did have my rabbit with me and he is so sweet, man he is my best friend I have no clue what I'll do when he's gone.. We've been though so much together, he sits by me the while time I was having a moment every now and then nudging my arm. He's the sweetest and I'll love him till my last breath. He will he in my 7 minutes, I'm not sure how much time I have left with him though, he's pretty old so we just gotta make the moments count! 
          
          Anyway, please have a happy thanksgiving! 

poopyface23456

@Cant_Kill_Me No problem, im happy to help :)
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Cant_Kill_Me

@StrongForEverlark thank you! May God continue to bless you and your family. 
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Cant_Kill_Me

So.. I just watched the new episode of one of my favorite shows.. I saw that Netflix had said there was a new episode and I threw my hands up hitting my phone on the counter which launched it into the bathroom sink... But the episode was so cute!! They almost kissed but then someone interrupted them... I let out thousands of internal screams I wanted that dude to get hit by a bus the first time he appeared in this show.. And now after all he's done... I still want him to be hit with a bus x2 :) 

Cant_Kill_Me

So.. What do y'all think abt the new FK+C album coming out at midnight? So many things going on today that I'm supper exited about, one of my fav shows just got a new episode, I was abt to do a presentation but then we had a tornado still, easy ch in history + got bonus points for the test, history test was moves to Monday, only got two days if school next week, a book I'm reading released a new chapter, I got a new idea for the HG chapter I'm working on, the FK+C Christmas album comes out in less than an hour, AND it snowed... How much better can life get rn, that's pretty flipping awesome!! 
          
          Also, a question for all of y'all:
          
          Should I get on a posting schedule? Or just post new chapters at random? I know what its like to follow authors with strict posting dates and others who don't care and post whenever. I know the excitement of opening up the app to see your author has posted a new chapter, and if I get on a posting schedule, then it takes away the surprise/excitement, but I also know some people like to have dates of the next CH release for example: I will post every Friday. But idk, what's your thoughts?

StrongForEverlark

Lol, hiii.
          
          So, um, I don't know how to start Chapter Nine, even though I know my plan for the story, a bit. I just don't know how to start the chapter. Any possible tips?

StrongForEverlark

@Cant_Kill_Me *COUGH, COUGH*, UMMMMM . . . THAT'S A BIT CLASSIFIED . . .
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StrongForEverlark

Okay, seriously though, thank you for reading and commenting on my story. They always make me laugh and appreciate my writing more. So, just thank you. God bless you❤️❤️❤️

StrongForEverlark

@Cant_Kill_Me "BUT, YOU CAN'T CATCH ME NOW!"
            
            You're so amazing.
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Cant_Kill_Me

@StrongForEverlark Ofc! I'm always here if you need me! Always here becase "i'm in the trees I'm in the breeze my footsteps on the ground I'm HERE I'm THERE I'm EVERYWHERE"
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Cant_Kill_Me

OK guys, so.. FK+C (For King + Country) will be really close to me, sometime around Christmas, and I'd really like to go since I will be off school. I love they concerts so much! I went to my first FK+C a few months ago and absolutely loved it!! I've been listening to their music from the age of four and after all these many years I finally got to see them on stage, they've been a big part in my life and I will love them forever!! Plus their new album cokes out in 18 days!! (There is a countdown on Spotify) Pray that I can convince my family on letting me go, please. :)
          
          Also, movie recommendation: Priceless. 
          Its an amazing movie 10/10 Joel Smallbone was an amazing actor in it!! One of my new favorite movies, and yes its up there with THG its just that good, but this is also coming from me, a FK+C fan and the main actor (Joel Smallbone) is a member of FK+C, soo.. That explains a lot.. 
          
          Anyway, I hope you guys have an amazing day/night! 
          <3

Cant_Kill_Me

@StrongForEverlark Well.. This is coming from a fan of the actor and he and hid brother's music...
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StrongForEverlark

@Cant_Kill_Me Woah, if that movie is in the Hunger Games level, it MUST be good.
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Cant_Kill_Me

Song quote of the week: 
          
          Listening to: Amen- for King + country
                        Lyrics:
          And if the world is listenin'
          This is my confession
          You are my obsession
          
          01:43 ━━━━●───── 03:50
          ⇆ㅤ ㅤ◁ㅤ ❚❚ ㅤ▷ ㅤㅤ↻
                         ılıılıılıılıılıılı
          
          ᴠᴏʟᴜᴍᴇ : ▮▮▮▮▮▮▮▮▮▮  

Cant_Kill_Me

Question of the day. 
          What's your favorite book, and what song fits perfectly with it? 
          
          Listening to: What are we waiting for. 
          01:43 ━━━━●───── 03:50
          ⇆ㅤ ㅤ◁ㅤ ❚❚ ㅤ▷ ㅤㅤ↻
                         ılıılıılıılıılıılı
          ᴠᴏʟᴜᴍᴇ : ▮▮▮▮▮▮▮▮▮▮  

StrongForEverlark

@Cant_Kill_Me No, it's okay :).
            
            But, literally, so many other songs have that power, and I don't know why. It creates such a hollow feeling, you know? ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ
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Cant_Kill_Me

@StrongForEverlark fr, I feel you... Just with other music.. But I feel you sis/bro (sorry if I miss gender you) 
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