@Carmei-Maxiee
There has got to be smth wrong with my mind.
Somebody please diagnose me, I don’t even care what it is, anger issues, autism, superior complex, SOCIOPATHY. I NEED TO KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH ME
WHY DO I KEEP HURTING PEOPLE THAT I CARE FOR???
And what really stings is the realization I’m only in relations with someone because it benefits ME. Just how self-centered am I really???
Rang/vent!!
I remember my childhood vaguely, I was just usually forced to study and to be top of my class blah blah blah. I hated it so much I started getting into trouble and being stubborn.
Practically I didn’t even have a normal childhood (I was an only child and I had to bear the responsibility of being top one constantly? No wonder why I was so naive and dumb, I was practically sheltered)
I remember a couple of times where I’d fight tears because I hated having to be top one, my grandma (who was the main person who forced me to do allat) told me to “just do it for myself!” HOW CAN I DO THIS FOR MYSELF WHEN IM DOING IT FOR YOU. ITS NOT MY FAULT IM NATURALLY SMART, I HATE WHEN SOMETHING IS EXPECTED OF ME
oh my god, I used to fight tears and would never cry because I would get hit even more. Even now when I’m literally a teenager, I still fight tears because it’s so annoying whenever my own FAMILY makes fun of me for crying over something so stupid
Just now i was crying over the fact that i accidentally broke my favourite glass. I wouldn’t have cared so much if it was any other glass but it was MY favourite glass, MY GLASS. I STILL WANT TO CRY RIGHT NOW
and report cards came back home, my uncle said “you want to be a doctor with those grades?” WELL ITS NOT MY FAULT I DINT CARE ANYMORE, I DONT EVEN KNOW IF I WANT TO BE A DOCTOR ANYMORE WHAT THE FUCK. I’m genuinely gonna run away or khms once I graduate high school. I
I’m going to burst out laughing
@snortletortle, do you think lan zhan had like gender dysphoria or once wanted to be a girl because Wei ying kept flirting with the other girls
“Do you like mianmian?”
GOOGLE IS A BITCH!! I CANT ACCESS MY AO3
he’s so fine like ugh, kiss me pretty boy
HELLO LIEBE
DID YOU MISS MEEEEE
@UshankaCat OH MY GOD YESSSS I MISSED YOU HABIBTI I lowk forgot that we were friends on this account lol TvT
I just read incense burner extra let’s go
@Carmei-Maxiee STOP I JUST ORETENDED THAT DIDNT EXIST I READ IT BEFORE STARTING MDZS BC I THOUGHT IT WAS LIKE A PREQUEL OR SMTH AND OMFG
I HATE how you can’t delete a pdf on your phone
@Carmei-Maxiee carmei I’m getting a bit tired of this honestly, can you please read the room a bit and see how serious this is to me? Your being way too casual about this while one night I literally cried over it worrying. Can you please straighten up and have a mature conversation about this instead of brushing it off with one small message and saying ‘thanks for worrying!’ Like that?
@Night_Wood ehhh, it’s really ok for me. I don’t really mind either way about it xd But thanks for worrying
@Carmei-Maxiee can we please talk more abt how you casually just shared part of your location? It’s not something you can just brush off- I know it seems like I’m being pushy but I’m just genuinely worried
@Carmei-Maxiee it is not ok. you shouldn’t spread information like that so easily, there are lots of people out there that actively look for stuff like that and you could be hurt for it. There is LOTS of things people can do with that information. Even if it doesn’t seem like a big because you’ve never been doxxed before or something it’s very dangerous to put information like that out on the internet for everyone to see and use to their advantage.
@Night_Wood ahh, it’s ok really :)) What else are they gonna do? Come to my house XD. Plus there’s a bunch of houses that look the same so it’ll be quite hard to find it
Can we like, start venting into poetry like
I am a bitter and resentful girl who knows not a thing of the world.
I lash out when I am frustrated for I tire of the way I am treated
TELL ME THESE ARENT LITERAL BARS