CatCafe
*I miss you*
"Do any of you have a friend that you can even consider as a sibling?" my form teacher asked my class one day.
It was a rainy morning, keeping the temperature cool. Many students were drowsily falling asleep, only for them to get woken up and get into a bad mood. When I heard the question, my mind clicked. My heart sank and the the feeling of being broken was coming back.
"Cathlene…" I whispered the one word so softly my shoulder partner did not even notice.
The sadness was clawing at my heart, making me have to cry. Alas, I kept the feeling hidden. My mind went back to two years ago. The day that probably would have been one of the saddest in all my life.
(When Kira was 14)
I had known Cathlene since primary four. Ever since, our bond grew like Pinocchio's nose if he never stopped lying (I'm creative, okay?). We were like peas in a pod. Both of us were inseparable. We had nearly the same hobbies. We trusted each other enough to share everything. Our feelings, personal life, secrets. However, I regretted knowing that one secret that day.
"Kira, I-I need to tell you something. It's very important and I'm sorry I didn't tell you earlier." Cathlene looked at me with a timid look as she guided me to a place with no one.
"I…have heart cancer." Cathlene winced as her deepest, darkest secret was revealed.
"No, no no no no no! We were supposed to be best friends for life! Why?! Why must everything always be taken away from me?! It's unfair!" I cried as a tear rolled down my cheek.
My parents were divorced, my happiness destroyed when my childhood friend went to a different school. Now life was taking away Cathlene from me. Why, just why? Did life really want me to suffer? The most devastated part was that Cathlene did a recent check and she only had two years left to live. I felt as if a carpet had been pulled under me and I was falling into a deep black void. Cathlene have me a hug as a tear slid down her cheek as well.
CatCafe
I had gotten a car ride because I was too devastated to walk properly. When I had gotten home, my mother greeted me with a cheerful voice. However, looking at how my face was, she hugged me. I cried and cried. I skipped school for a few day. I mostly spent my time in my room, only coming out to watch TV, eat or get something. The incident had left me devastated, crushed. Then soon, I had trouble expressing my emotions, got a little bit of depression. I just could not cope with Cathlene not being around. The empty seat next to me gave me reminder every single day that she was gone, forever. Sometimes, I wished I did not sit next to her so that I could escape this painful reminder. But that wouldn't change a thing. Wherever she sat, there would always be that empty seat, sitting there.
I always went to Cathlene's tomb. I would sit the for a while and place a gift for her once in a while.
"Kira!" my shoulder partner shook me so hard the chair rocked side to side.
I realized I had zoned out and class was nearly over. As the teacher came over and asked if I was alright, I nodded. After school, I decided to visit her tomb again. I put my bag down at home and took a photo with me.
"Hey, it took a while, but I finally got the picture out. I hope you like it." I smiled as a few tears escaped my eyes.
It was a picture of me and Cathlene together in a park. I had placed the photo in a frame that had two small butterflies glued on to it.
I placed the photo down and murmured, "Life's different without you. I feel like my heart has a hole in it. I miss you."
