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Oh my gooood, I really don't like my life right now.
First of all, I'm angry at myself because I know I could've done better in Geography, but I'm just too fucking lazy to do the work I'm supposed to do.
I keep trying to tell myself to just do the damn work, it's just 5 months left until summer break but I just- agh!
I tell my friends and family about this but all they say is to keep myself motivated. Which leads us to my second problem. I have no motivation to do anything.
I've tried to find it. Make my foster parents proud, make my favorite teacher proud, there will be a reward in the end if you work hard, bla bla bla. Those thing motivate me for like one day, then they just... don't.
Third thing; my biological mom is trying to make me forgive her for what she did to me and my sisters by giving us money.
Like bitch no. You can't buy my forgiveness, you won't get my fucking forgiveness ever.
And I don't get why my sisters forgave her like, one year after we got away from the hellhole. And now they be nagging me about to try and forgive her and meet her again. Bitch, what the fuck. She used to whip me for hours, put pepper in my eyes and almost drow me because I once forgot to brush my teeth and y'all expecting me to forgive her?
The fuck no.
Mmmmmm, and reality decided to give me a cold, hard slap and make me realize that my crush is an actual jerk, racist, homophobe and a bunch of other bad things and I don't know why I fell so fucking hard for him. He seriously said that he wanted to know our weaknesses so that he could take us down.
Man, I think I'll stick to my anime boys in the future.
There. I've finally emptied what's on my mind and I'm sorry to everyone who read this shit. I'm prolly just overreacting or smth lol.
One happy thing is that I'm finally finding all the Bakudeku and Shigadabi angst I've been looking for. (Does anyone else like Soulmate AU? I'm such a sucker for them!!)
