Catluver117

Okay people! After a super long hiatus, I am back! Expect a chapter before the end of the week.
          
          For those of you who'd like to know what happened, here's a summary:
          
          -family
          -school
          -life
          -depression
          -anxiety 
          -narcolepsy
          -sickness
          -forgetfulness 
          -lack of motivation
          -fairy tail
          -RWBY
          -destiny 2
          -horizon: zero dawn
          -grounded
          -work
          -octopus bites
          
          Long story short: I'm alive (somehow) and ready to start writing again.

I'm so sorry that you haven't heard from me for so long- really, I am.  
          
          I'm just going through a really tough time right now. My beloved pet bird, Kiwi, has flown away and I'm literally making myself sick with worry.
          
          Please understand that I do intend to return, it will just be a while.

I am working very hard to get the next chapters to you! I haven't forgotten my promise to get it done by the end of this week. Just a heads up. Looks like I can still make that deadline. :)

IDK why but I keep getting so many Danny Phantom fanfics in my recommendations? It's just so random.

Sorry I feel I owe you guys an explanation for my lack of activity- I recently got into Fairy Tail and I can't stop watching it. (A poor excuse, I know, but I SHIP NALU AND GAJEVY SO HARD.)
          
          I know that it's completely unfair of me to keep you all waiting like this, so I'm making the effort to try and finish chapters 4 and 5 (or was it 5 and 6?)  by the end of this week.
          
          Chapter 4 (or 5?) is relatively short compared to the others I've written thus far, so I feel the need to compensate for both this and my absence by releasing both chapters at once.
          
          Serious question here: do any of you find these updates helpful? I don't want to be annoying, I'm just trying to let you all know what's going on and what to expect.
          

Quick update:
          
          Chapter 4 is nearly done, so be expecting that soon! I haven't abandoned you all, I swear! :)

That moment when it's 2 AM
          
          And I just finished a movie
          
          And I usually watch movies stoically
          
          But it's 2 AM
          
          I CAN'T DEAL WITH EMOTIONS RIGHT NOW
          
          WHAT?
          
          I'M NOT CRYING, YOU'RE CRYING.
          
          Then, of course
          
          My wonderful ADHD brain chimes in
          
          And says
          
          "You know what this is the perfect time for?
          
          INSPIRATION!"
          
          AT 2 AM
          
          (Goddammit brain, why can't you work like this when I'm actually trying to get stuff done?!)
          
          So yep I'm probably going to be up all night writing.
          
          
          (Sorry, future me.)
          
          Also maybe you'll all be happy to know:
          
          YAY NEW MEDICATION I'M MENTALLY STABLE AGAIN :D (for now)
          
          Yes that means I am back from the dead. No that does not mean I'll stop procrastinating. I put the "Pro" in "procrastinate".
          
          Let me be a pro at something for once, guys. XD

It kills me to say this, it really does; but you all deserve to know what's going on. Long story short: you're not going to be seeing much of me for an indefinite amount of time. Don't worry, I don't plan on leaving you all hanging. I really do want to finish writing, but I just can't right now. I've got a lot of stuff going on and I'm getting increasingly mentally unstable. (Like panic attacks, mental breakdowns, extremely severe depression, etc etc) And I have the feeling it's only going to be getting worse- I'm just not right in the head. No, I'm not being overly dramatic, coming up with excuses, or asking for attention. Attention is literally the last thing I want. But you all deserve to know. 

I might be unable to finish tonight- this is the longest chapter I've ever written! I completely underestimated the amount of writing I'd be doing. I'm literally at around 2,300 words as of right now, and there's still a lot more to go if I'm going to end the chapter where I want to. Just letting you know I really am trying to get this to you guys when I said I would.

Quick update: I'm heading in for the night. Chapter 3 WILL be up before the end of tomorrow, that's a promise. I'm 1,300-something words in- this is getting finished, I swear. I've just lost motivation, but I'm getting back into it. I'm also scared- this chapter contains the first fight scene I've ever written. 
          
          Please let me know if you find these updates helpful or if they're just annoying. I don't really hear much from you guys, so I'm not sure what you like. I'm just doing what I would want an author in my position to do.