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the pain, is too much sometimes....my breath hitches, my tears stop....I just stop. This feeling covers me, except it's not a feeling anymore. I've become numb. Numb to the jokes and the laughs and also numb to the pain that makes me want to go back to when things were simple, because they never were. The pain that holds me down and reminds me my place in people's life. The pain that reminds me that I am nothing to everyone. The pain that reminds me breathing is impossible, and to be happy isn't ever an option 

My pain will range from up down and side ways

Thank god it's Friday , 
          Friday's will always be better then Sunday , 
          cause Sunday's my suicide day

I get that negativity is a temptation that is so easy to give into, i've done it for most my life. But negativity will only get you so far. Being positive is one of the hardest things to do, but it's the most rewarding