CaydenceSkyler

Alright guys school starts in 3 days for me so I might be inactive for a little while. Love ya <3 Caydence
          	I just published "The Garden (Part 1)" of my story "Phan oneshots". https://my.w.tt/qNjisdVOhP

CaydenceSkyler

Well now you all see my face... Man this is awkward. I'm prepared for all of you to unfollow and never look back but if you're still here, I want to tell you something. I have spent 50% of my exsitance hating myself and trying everything in my power to change who I am. I thought things like how much I weigh and how attractive I am were the things that defined my personality. I thought that because of my social anxeity I would never be able to make friends, or fall in love, but thanks to the internet and a handful of beautiful humans that found the time to have a simple conversation with me, I now see that maybe I won't be lonely forever. Right now I may have no one but maybe one day I will have someone and knowing that gives me the motavation to keep going. Knowing that some people actually want to read my stories, helps get me out of bed in the morning. With that being said,  I just want to thank each and every one of you. Even if all you did was vote on one of my stories, even if you only answered one of my questions, even if you just followed me because I followed you, thank you. I love you all from the bottom of my heart and if you're drowing in the deep dark pool I've been in lately just know it will get better, even if it seems impossible because if a self depricating, anxouis person like me can make their profile picture a picture of themselves then I'd like to belive that anything is possible.

CaydenceSkyler

@gaytoraid thank you so much! I'm begining to understand that nobody really knows each other on the internet but it doesnt mean that we cant care about one another. Hopefully all us socially impared people could come together and help others get through tough times.
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 I wish I was skinny enough. I wish I was pretty enough. I wish my anxiety didn't take over my life. I wish my parents didnt make me feel invalid. I just fucking wish I was good enough. I'm sorry for being a disappointment to everyone. I'll never be as good as you want me to be and I'm so sorry for failing again.