Cece_Azer

For the past few days... I have been missing someone I shouldn't. Well, not even really missing the person, more... the memories with that person. It's been coming up on three years since the incident that made it so I could never talk to them again.
          	
          	A lot of regrets, and a lot of things I wish I had done better... or even handled better.
          	
          	I was young, and so, so stupid. Still am. But I've learned a lot from that past friendship, and I'm mad at myself for ruining it.
          	
          	I've moved on from all that... but there are days where I just sit there and think back to when we were friends, just playing Minecraft and Among Us. Those are the moments I sometimes miss, and I wish I could relive them, maybe make different decisions.
          	
          	I used to think, "I would give anything to go back and change the past," especially when it first happened. But eventually I realized... what's the point? I can't. So why spend my life dreaming about something impossible?
          	
          	It hurt, especially for the first... I don't know, six months.
          	
          	I was lonely, and I'm not the best at making friends. So when I do find someone, I hold onto them as long as I can. And when a friendship ends... it feels like a little part of me goes with it.
          	
          	That friendship was really all I had, besides my friendship with Gigi (love you, babes!). So letting it go was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.
          	
          	I can never see that friendship returning, and I've come to accept that. It doesn't mean I don't look back sometimes. It just means I've made peace with the fact that some things are meant to stay in the past.
          	
          	And that's okay.
          	
          	I'll always be grateful for the good memories, even if I wish the ending had been different. Those memories helped shape who I am today, and while I can't rewrite the past, I can carry what it taught me into the future.

Cece_Azer

For the past few days... I have been missing someone I shouldn't. Well, not even really missing the person, more... the memories with that person. It's been coming up on three years since the incident that made it so I could never talk to them again.
          
          A lot of regrets, and a lot of things I wish I had done better... or even handled better.
          
          I was young, and so, so stupid. Still am. But I've learned a lot from that past friendship, and I'm mad at myself for ruining it.
          
          I've moved on from all that... but there are days where I just sit there and think back to when we were friends, just playing Minecraft and Among Us. Those are the moments I sometimes miss, and I wish I could relive them, maybe make different decisions.
          
          I used to think, "I would give anything to go back and change the past," especially when it first happened. But eventually I realized... what's the point? I can't. So why spend my life dreaming about something impossible?
          
          It hurt, especially for the first... I don't know, six months.
          
          I was lonely, and I'm not the best at making friends. So when I do find someone, I hold onto them as long as I can. And when a friendship ends... it feels like a little part of me goes with it.
          
          That friendship was really all I had, besides my friendship with Gigi (love you, babes!). So letting it go was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.
          
          I can never see that friendship returning, and I've come to accept that. It doesn't mean I don't look back sometimes. It just means I've made peace with the fact that some things are meant to stay in the past.
          
          And that's okay.
          
          I'll always be grateful for the good memories, even if I wish the ending had been different. Those memories helped shape who I am today, and while I can't rewrite the past, I can carry what it taught me into the future.

Cece_Azer

For people who are wondering, No. I will not be continuing on any of the einmau 'books' i had worked on in the past
          
          I'm honestly done watching aphmau, I was 10-13 when I was watching her and 12-13 when writing about that ship. And im 15 going on 16 now. And its not smth I want to continue. 
          
          Sorry to the people who wanted more, im just not interested in that ship anymore. 
          
          I am still gonna be working on 'books' one of them being based on a different ship from the powerless trilogy, and others completely my idea and my character's.