@Celeste032105
sometimes I wonder if ending everything would be easier
I have so much to live for but it can be so hard sometimes
@Celeste032105 You too <3
@bird_45 thanks, I appreciate it hope that whatever you're going through, it'll get better:)
@Celeste032105 Yeah, it is hard. I get it
atp i'm so offline that I'm pretty sure most people would've forgotten that I exist lmao
urgh I have so much work to rush and an exam tmr T-T
@Celeste032105 i spelt that wrong i meant INTELLIGENCE.
@Celeste032105 BEAT EVERYBODY ELSE WITH YOUR INTELLEGENCE
@Celeste032105 oh WELL I KNOW YOU WON
I’m so busy these days sorry for not being online T-T
urgh eoy exams are coming up after the term break and I’m not prepared
T-T
And there’s so many project deadlines and exams every week, like I have a literature exam tmr:(((
Woah my intuition from ystr was correct
I’m sick and just came back from the doctors and lunch so imma go take a nap now
urgh great I’ll have to do make up class for Japanese T-T
me sad cuz I got 5 core subjects tmr + 3 hour Japanese class T-T
to top it off, I'm feeling kinda off today like I'm gonna get sick soon but tbh I don't even know if I want to get sick to stay home and SLEEP or no -_-
btw sorry for being so offline I have been BUSY and finals start next term (ik some of you are on summer holiday tho)
sigh i miss u twin hru
@ItsPurrfectPages that’s good to know:))
@Celeste032105 aw i hope everything’s okay, and i’m gooood
@ItsPurrfectPages aww thanks eh I think I'll live -_- hbu?
is everyone ignoring me -_-
anyways I think I got way too many projects bruh T-T
The deadline for my Math APT is tomorrow but I haven't finished ittttt
But I think I can do it by the deadline(I hope)
WHY DID THEY HAVE TO JOIN CODING WITH MATH AAHHHHHHHJIJAONFINAEONIAEJODEAIOJDOAEJICNAEOINIAJD
@himynameisbob4276 im actually so done bruh not again what is srsly wrong with wattpad
@himynameisbob4276 NOT AGAIN BRUH THEY DIDN'T SEND ME THIS AGAIN T-T
@himynameisbob4276 OMG WAIT I SWEAR WATTPAD DIDN'T PUT THIS IN MY NOTIFS WTF IM SORRY T-T
my notifs are so dry -_-
anyways a (not so) lil rant: basically after school tdy my classmate sitting behind me texted my asking if my seat partner and i could change to the pair of seats right in front of the teacher. context for this is that this school term, we changed our form class sitting arrangement again, and now all the tables were in pairs instead of some are pairs and some are trios. normally i just stay at the same seat and not bother to change and just deal with whoever ends up next to me, but this pair of classmates(one of them who dm me) stayed at the last row of my seat column.
eventually this nice girl ended up next to me and we're pretty chill, but one of my friends ended up without a partner and she didn't want to sit in front of the teacher so she took a chair and sat next to that person who dm me(let's just call her AA.). AA is friends with my friend(im gonna call her BB) BB because they're both in soccer, and BB somehow managed to get by the whole day while sitting there
anyways, the whole day I could hear AA whispering to her seat partner about how I didn't give up my seat for my friend BB and how I should've let BB sit at my place since apparently they were here first but i never moved. I just ignored them
Note that BB isn't a bad friend but I think AA(who is btw obnoxiously talkative and extroverted) put her in a bad position
Fast forward to tdy, when she msg me, long story short she was kind passive aggressive about it and really wanted me to move with my seat partner rn and go to that seat in front of the teacher but one, I don't want to move, I'm comfortable with where I am. Two, I don't think it's fair to my seat partner to just uproot ourselves and move without having her consent or acknowledgement, and three, I want to be able to choose for myself for once. All these years I find myself hard to refute anyone and I want to change that and learn to root for myself, but it seems that AA isn't really happy about it.
nvrm i got a bit of time to talk a lil more
so then AA went to complain to BB that I didn't want to give up my seat for BB to sit, and then BB went to apologise to me and said that she didn't tell AA to convince me or anything and AA did it our of her own accord, and I do appreciate her being honest to me about it.
BB then said that it was fine and she would deal with the seating thingy herself and hoped that I wasn't mad at her or AA. I def wasn't made at her but I was a little shocked and pissed about AA but I didn't say it aloud cuz all this stuff wasn't her fault and I didn't really want to put too much on her plate. Then I asked her how I could respond to AA cuz I've got nothing against her but I was alr planning on refuting her request but I didn't know how I would say it so I asked her how should I respond
I mean that's her friend right so it's like a reasonable question to ask her ig
I think BB then told AA that I didn't know how to respond(BB meant well dw) so she just said "if you don't know how to respond just be honest"
The ironic thing is that I've been being honest for the past text messages and trying to say in the nicest way possible that "I'm not really willing to change seats"
idk am I making something out of nothing and being too unreasonable, selfish and dramatic just for sitting arrangements or is this justfied...?
sorry for the long rant I just wanted to get this off my chest
ill talk about the second part of this tmr, gnn
urgh idk how to face her when i go back to school tmrr
sotd: traitor by Olivia Rodrigo
YOU’RE STILL, YOU’RE STILL A TRAITORRRR
hi guys
im back
so sorry for being so inactive for the past few weeks:((
Stuff came up and my motivation aas nowhere to be found but I think it’s getting a lil bit better now;)
I’ll try to respond to notifs soon
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