I am so sorry for being gone so long I will be updating my books but right now going to b slow going. I had to put my mom in a nursing home and I am still struggling with the emotions involved with that decision. I didn't even really get to make that decision, my Doctors did. They said because of my physical and mental health that after more than 5 years being my moms only care giver that I couldn't anymore. My mom has alzheimers and dementia and she is bipolar. The guilt of breaking my promise of not putting her in a nursing home is eating me alive but also guilty of feeling relieved, they can take better care of her than I ever could but knowing this and reconciling my feelings is 2 different things... please b patient with me.