Hey guys ^^; it's been a little while, huh? I'm really sorry for my super long stint of silence on here, a few things have come up and I've only just barely started to get my head on straight so I wanted to give a small update just in case I vanish again.
About a month or so ago, I actually started the process of finishing the last chapter of Electric Heart and was intending on posting it as a surprise, but after going through it all, I've discovered I...kinda hate the entire fic? The way I characterized Niji through this story feels very off to me- I didn't address his temper enough, I baby girl-ified him, I took away his stubbornness and substance that made him, *him*, and I'm just incredibly displeased with my work. Due to this, I'm STILL not sure if I will ever finish that fic. It has 140.6 THOUSAND words in it and to rewrite all of that... you can imagine how my head has turned off to the idea.
Added to this, I'm feeling incredibly disheartened as a writer in general. At the end of the day, regardless of the copium I sit in and the praise authors receive, fan art is just held to a higher desire point than writing- mostly due in part to the lack of time and willing effort people have to put towards this particular media outlet. It's discouraging. It's disheartening. I feel often I am shouting into the wind with no response back and lately this has been hitting me very, very hard and resulting in my lack of faith in my own ability.
This will of course pass. I have been accepted into 2 different zines and have begun work on those. Added to that, Shachi's and Penguin's birthdays are around the corner and I intend to write something for them. I want to work further on Porcelain Waters as well as I do still think of it often.
For now, I am just struggling to press forward, but I'll be back with more. In the meantime, I'm once again very sorry for my silence and I'm very thankful for all of your patience. Thank you to any new followers and even more so to the old.
