Okay, I'll be be blunt.
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I'm not even sure if I want to write anymore. When I read over my writing, or even check for mistakes, I don't like it. I strongly dislike my writing style and I want to change it, but then again I'm not even sure if I want to write in the first place.
I'm between a rock and a hard place as I can't decide which where to go, and what I want. I know that I can't decide an more because I'm changing. Everything about me is slowly morphing into a older version of me and I can't help but feel that my old work felt and was written childishly.
I hope that I do come back to writing because I love it, I do. I love putting words together to create something beautiful, because that's what it is, beautiful. Writing to me was never something I did for fum, but something I did to vent, create, live through, because I was too afraid to have a voice in real life. This isn't the end of my writing, no, never.
It's just the beginning, and I'll still check in, and start to thoroughly plan my books from now on, but for now I think I need to figure out what I want first.
I'll be back for you wattpad, I'll always come back to you.
