I know no one will see this. So I'll just vent my heart out.
I want someone to hug me and hold me. I want someone to do that and tell me that everything may be hard, but I'll get through it. That I'll get through it, not alone, but with them by my side. I want someone to let me cry on them and rant my head off till I pass out. I really want someone to give me a kiss on the forehead and to rub my back as they hold me and treat me like a sad little kid. I don't want to feel unwanted and unloved anymore. I don't want to feel alone and unimportant. I want to be someone's first choice. I want to be someone's special person they can talk to. I want to be loved the same way a kid should be loved. I am so tired of feeling this way, but I know I can't change it. I want to respectfully vent to someone and tell them how I really feel. But the fact that I keep getting ignored or left behind makes me want to bottle it up and cry to myself during the night.
