Devin T

Hey bro how things been 

@ChaosOTD how have things been

Another small update... Still no good news sadly...
          
          My health is pretty genuinely still deteriorating and will probably do so until I Have this surgery... which they keep trying to push back.... I'm just losing hope at this point. I hope nothing but the best for all of ya. I won't let this beat me but goddamn does it suck.... I miss writing.

A small update/explanation for folks I guess.
          
          Due to a traffic accident earlier in life I put on weight and haven't been able to realistically put it off due to injuries + Physical complications it turns out. 
          
          I basically learned my stomach doesn't produce proper hormones making it ridiculously hard to lose weight so I physically *cannot* lose weight without assistance so I'll be needing to get bariatric surgery which they basically remove part of my stomach.  The reason for this is back injuries are becoming worse instead of healing tied to weight issues & lack of ability to do proper physical therapy.
          
          Past that, I will be re-evaluated if I need spinal correction surgery if it doesn't decompress properly on its own. I've been in pretty bad fucking pain. It's not a fun way to live... I Just want to exist without being in constant fucking 6~9/10 pain honestly. It's fucking awful and it is why I haven't been writing even though I desperately want to. The medication they have me on often has me sleeping....
          
          But, because of the constant pain I can't bring myself to focus on writing currently and I genuinely despise that my body is like this. ETA 5+Months til' bariatric surgery is done and then I begin the road to recovery.... I fucking hate that I keep stalling/pushing back writing. I'll do my best to chip away at it in between moments of fog from the medicine/pain. 
          
          I genuinely feel awful that this is my current update on things. I feel like I'm failing people who actually enjoy the stories I write, I've flaked on people IRL due to pain too and lost a few friends in all of this. It fucking sucks. ;-;

I am slowly working on my stories day by day but my health is still pretty sketchy. Sorry for the wait. ;-; Just a small update. Got 5 major doctors scheduled for specialists to truly figure out what is going on with me. It has been a very taxing time which is why I haven't really had many spoons to dedicate to writing atm.

My physical health is mostly in the clear now, Within the next month I plan to re-read through my own stories to not lead to any major plot holes and begin updating them semi-regularly if at all possible.  Jesus, It's been a while.... Mask last update in 2022... Crazy to think my life went to hell for three years straight. 
          
          But, Small updates; The sinus infection I was fighting off is actually completely out of my system now. It was highly drug-resistant so antibiotics were barely fighting it off. It honestly fucked my lungs for quite a while and I am slowly recovering.
          
          As for my mental health, It's been... A very long ride, Found a good therapist and have began unpacking the past 3 years, It isn't gonna be a fun journey but it is something I need to do for my own sanity so I don't fucking suddenly snap one day due to repressed trauma honestly. 
          
          I hope you all are doing well and frankly, Doing far better then I am. I thank you to the ones who stuck around in my discord and have supported me this whole time, I promise to come back a better writer and genuinely keep my stories going from start to finish.
          
          Normally, I don't exactly ramble this much... But, Seeing alot of the comments popping up on my stories and in my DMs on discord honestly made me very happy and want to continue writing. I can't thank those who supported me enough honestly. Y'all made it worth starting writing and y'all make it worth continuing writing.

I'm finally physically doing a good bit better. Still quite a few health issue s I am trying my best to sort out... Managed to make it to my 29th birthday as of the first of this lovely month of december... Didn't think I'd make it this far honestly.
          
          I can't give a definitive date of when I'll be back to writing. But, I haven't given up on things. I really need to adjust the last chapter of "A match 'maid' in hell" because it feels robotic now that I'm in more of a steady state of mind.... But, I don't know when I'll have the energy to do it sadly. 
          
          I hope you are all doing well, Once again. I am truly sorry it has taken so long to get back to writing...

Thanks for the follow. :)

As for why I haven't made many updates lately... I have been very.... very ill. I am sorry for not continuing my stories but I am constantly sick... 
          
          Currently getting tested for leukemia.... Possibly infected spleen...? And a bunch of other shit that could be wrong... My health is 100% in dire straights. 
          
          I will not be back to writing until this is better, I am very sorry.

I know it's been a while. First actual positive update in a while. New doctor is actually helping mom make progress to recovering. I'm in far better spirits then I've been in almost a year now. Hopefully back to writing soon... I felt the last few chapters in my stories weren't quite up to what I'd have liked them to be so I will do my best to improve the quality of my writing again. Thank ya for those who've stuck around and those who helped me through shit in my discord. It means the world to me.