@ChaosSoulWrites
GUYS MEGA ZERAORA CAME OUT AND IT LOOKS SO COOL
@ChaosSoulWrites I was kinda disappointed by the design lol, I thought its mega would be a good opporunity to make it scary and edgy but it kinda looks the same. really hype for (spoilers!) gmea pramcgoh Z, and agme rsrapttro (unscramble if you really wanna know :)) )
So I was looking for fanart of braixen and lopunny....and its all CORN!
But really though...what was I expecting...
I mentioned on discord oneday that I consider myself to be neurodivergent. Now I am not formally diagnosed with anything, but suspect I most likely have ADHD (most likely, I've looked into Anxiety, OCD, and Bipolar disorder, but none of those seem quite right...also btw I am just venting/braindumping rn). A lot of people self diagnose and that is wrong. My brother actually has very noticeable ADHD/Autism which has taken most of the attention of my parents, so I have seen the stuff he goes through. When I was 18 I had a panic attack during a statistics exam, and I failed the exam...I almost failed out of highschool and wondered what was wrong. Why was it so hard to study? Why did I listen to EDM and bounce around at midnight waking up my parents? Why do I constantly get scolded for not listening? Why did I look at my ceiling for two hours before brushing my teeth not listening to the voice in my head? The biggest question...why was it easy for me to have such cool ideas but struggle with everyday tasks?
I went to a therapist (I had been in therapy before due to an abusive situation with my dad, some of you know about that) and I told her about my exam. She told me to follow a routine, and I told her I tried using routines, timers, taking breaks and everything, but I kept overriding it. She told me it was likely I had ADHD, and 10 sessions later she said everything else I told her was textbook. My parents said that it was just a skill issue and that I need to exercise and eat better (no seriously they tell me that all the time).
I often identify with symptoms of ADHD and you guys know how difficult it is for me to update my own stories, and how inconsistent the updates are. No one has asked me, but I am not trying to say I have this to be a victim or to seem different and quirky. I wish I could just get myself to do things and not be distracted. I wish I didn't succumb to random urges to spend money . Oneday I will have the bravery to see a professional.
@ChaosSoulWrites Yeahhh that happens a lot so I never get that much sleep. I just don't have the time to lmao. It's also why my grades in school are honestly not very good at the moment.
@Peripakymas lol true , I said I would do my homework today but then I had to vote, do my laundry, help my mom cook (which took like 2 hours because she's not feeling good) and before I knew it, it was nighttime.
@ChaosSoulWrites Yeah I've gone through many similar things and my therapists have said that it was probably ADHD as well. Time just doesn't work the same way as it does for others and "schedules" aren't real to me. I can never follow a schedule, it's just not possible. I'm either hyperfixating or getting distracted by every little thing. I too am too nervous to go see a professional to get an actual test. Bravery will come one day. (We read and make pokemon fanfics, that's a definitive sign of neurodivergence)
I just saw the new megas from Pokemon Legenda ZA and they are so cool! Which one is your favorite? I think mine might be mega delphox.
@AnEnigmaticPerson I forgot Frosslass, I liked that one too. Some of them were weird, that is true.
@ChaosSoulWrites the new megas are kinda ass... probably froslass for me. kalos starter megas are hype. they cooked on the unova megas too (Scrafty, Chandelure, Elektross, and Scolipede)
For readers of Ups and Downs, how do you feel about Kage now that he has been revealed to be "evil"? Do you still like him, or has your opinion changed? What do you think he will do? I've already drafted the next 2 chapters, but I am curious to hear your predictions.
@ChaosSoulWrites that makes him more likeable in my opinion but alas he isn't truly evil now is he
I am having another *am I crazy or am I just nuerodivergent* moment...is someone commenting "wut" a joke? I made a comment and someone replied "wut" and I spelled out what it meant for them and then they said they were joking and that I can't take a joke, and then I just said they weren't funny, and they said I was not nice...I'm not offended because its so stupid, I'm confused more than anything. So do you think "wut" or "what" can be used as a joke? Because this was a first for me.
@Deino-Nuggets Yeah ik...I was kinda taken aback lol. I can be really gullible sometimes, but when someone is acting like they don't know what something means, I take it seriously...so it just left me confused and questioning my sanity lol.
@ChaosSoulWrites yeah no id be confused too lmao. thats less of a joke and more of a random statement
@Deino-Nuggets Well....I was reading a smutty book...hehe...and the guy was acting pretty submissive and I commented "Ooh he submissive me likey" and the person commented "wut" and I said (jokingly) that if they don't know what that means (and I explained to be sexually submissive) then they are too innocent to read the book...and then they said it was a joke and that I am too stupid to take a joke...so let's just say I am confused and a degenerate because I was reading smut...hehe...
I've wanted to work on Pokemon City, but I think I need to reassess the plot to make it more current. However, I am focusing on updating Ups and Downs and I have a really juicy two part chapter in the works. I can't wait to show you guys!
I just updated my ship book! I have been so inspired lol.
I just started a discord sever! But I am not really sure how to set it up well or moderate it hehe...once I make it a bit better, I will share the link with all of you!
I have REALLY enjoyed espeon x jolteon recently. The aesthetic is just chef kiss. I used to not think about Raiden and Mirai much, but now they are seriously the best and most healthy relationship in Ups and Downs...when I was 14 I liked the tension of relationships like Hoshikage, but now I think I prefer Miraiden.
So what do you think of my new focus on Miraiden? Do you want to see more Hoshikage?
What is your favorite relationship from Ups and Downs? Hoshikage? Miraiden? Miseika? or Yukiruki? Are there any you would like to see or develop more in future chapters?
honestly ive been a yukiruki lover since day 1. ive always thought they were cute together (tho tbh i dont remember the earlier chapters too clearly qwq) and it being one of my otps certainly helped