Savion/Artemis

I'm so bad at focusing to write chapters for my fanfic, whoopsie  
          It went from me struggling to focus writing chapters while in highschool (I don't remember when I started TFA actually), then senior highschool now I'm in freaking college and I still haven't got halfway through my current fanfic 

hi

Totally still active on Wattpad but not for writing but for reading things, though I do get progress in what I write but it's not a lot, and I don't want to force myself to write if it'll come out like hot garbage or rushed. Perhaps another time, I'll get back to writing in a less... Sporadic manner and be more consistent. But alas, Grade 12 isn't getting any easier given that it's the final quarter and soon enough it's going to be graduation time and I don't look forward to it. But hey, maybe then I'll loosen up and write more... Eventually.

I sure do love being so unfocused I can't write anything (sarcasm) (all I do lately is be on discord just roleplaying with someone, uhm, oops...)
          I'm still kinda writing but it's just, hard to focus? Like roleplaying is like multiplayer writing and my stupid little brain finds that more entertaining than singleplayer writing 
          This account ain't dead completely, I lurk around but uh- guess it's kinda collecting dust in a way. Welp! (I am so sorry, thankfully there's no oneshot requests stuck in "no focus" limbo except like one friend's request and they don't mind- I think-)

I swear this account isn't dead and I'm trying to write a chapter of TFA, I think- well uh, oopsie poor Wattpad account [And then I vanish off into the shadows to read warrior cat fanfics on here instead /j]

probably gonna open the spr oneshots book but in a limited way so after like 3 oneshot requests there, I'm closing it- but I'll remove that limit if I ever finish the 4 af oneshots in my request list- haha [vanishes]

I want to follow more people here but I'm too intimidated to do so :D

I should write, but the focus isn't working for me right now
          Honestly my focus is so bad compared to years ago, lmao I-
          Why?

I want to talk to people in the af community that I haven't already interacted with but with the trauma of that one server that eventually became something for stars align and like... Someone I used to know, given I was mostly isolated with being with only them for the most part for like a few months-
          
          I don't try much, I often feel afraid unless I think someone's really cool and I believe in myself that they won't bite me or something (I'm paranoid) 
          
          that or friends introduce me to em, but that's unlikely to occur 

My focus problems plague me a lot and I hate that sometimes. It takes only a strong hyperfixation to get me to finish several chapters on a consistent basis of an af fanfic. What is wrong with me? Why am I like this?