Chase Gilbert

I'm sorry I'm not perfect 
          I'm sorry I cut 
          I'm sorry I break promises 
          I'm sorry I want to give up
          I'm sorry I want to die 
          I'm sorry I want to kill myself 
          I'm sorry I hide my emotions 
          I'm sorry I lie and say I'm okay or I'm fine
          I'm sorry I truly am

I'm fine now haha. I just overreact. 

My wrist hurts.....

Sometimes I hate long distance relationships. But other times they're okay. I just hate to much distance. 
          

I forgot how much cutting hurts....I guess I'm no longer clean. 

I'm a terrible fucking boyfriend. 

Fake smiles 
          Dead eyes 
          Scratched wrists 
          Bruised thighs 
          White pills 
          Rope tied 
          Gun loaded 
          .....
          .....
          Suicide 

Fuck it I'm sorry. Why do I fuck up everything? I can't keep anyone happy. Honestly my last little two years ago killed themselves "because I ignored them". I get busy I'm human. I have things to and responsibilities to take care of. I can't just be here 24/7. 

I claimed what belongs to me. Claiming my baby boy. If you have a problem with me collaring him I really don't care. 

Being trans isn't seeking attention! I'm not faking anything. Please just stop it. I'm literally done with it at this point.