im such an adrenaline junkie, and given thats something that most people are born with the urge for the racing heart and the sweaty hands but me i wasnt, i was in such a bad place that i was numb from absalutley everything heat, colour, emotions everything was duller then it stopped and i could feel and i got the sweaty palms and racing heart and ever sine then ive wanted it to be my feelings all the time because im scared to go back to what it was in the past.