Akio

I hate myself. I hate my brother. I hate my family.
          
          I'm not close with my parents at all because of the stupid little bitch. All he does is do the most basic shit and he gets babied. I literally told my mom to stop talking to him like that but she just straight up called me a bitch. I wish I could just go run away and never ever come back to this hell hole. I'd rather die of hypothermia than be at this wretched home. If I ever run away, I hope none of my friends miss me. I'm too sensitive and pathetic to be cared about, I guess. I'm also not feeling my best right now. I get pretty dizzy and light headed when I get up from my bed too fast, and I'm currently sick. I also really really hate how my patents try to annoy me as if we're close. Which we're not because my siblings are way more important. And I hate how they try to poke my in my side. I seriously don't like that and it angers me.

Sometimes I feel like I'm a horrible friend and that I don't deserve to be loved. While other times I feel unwanted because I'm usually the friend who gets left behind. I hate myself so much that my body doesn't even want to cry at times. I also hate myself so much that I cry so hard that I pass out. I know no one will read this, so I'm gonna post this on here instead of on my main account.
          
          Anyways, my parents keep body shaming me and my mom keeps coming into my personal space without asking. Her excuse is "You were very cuddly when you were younger. I just want to do what you did." But she never asked if I was okay with it and it's making me feel really uncomfortable. She does this so much that I really want to scream and cry at her to stop. I don't like showing sadness to people [not even my family] but I don't want people worrying about me. Though most of the time I try to vent, someone always has to say; "You're being so selfish." "You need to start think about how others feel about this." "You're getting so annoying because you're life isn't as hard as mine or as hard as 'so and so'." And it's tiring me out. I'm so depressed that I don't even know what kinds of things I like at this point.
          
          I really hate how much I get left behind by my friends. Or how much I just left out of anything my friends or family do. I feel alone and it hurts. Sometimes I just want to stab myself a hundred times to distract me from all this pain. If anyone sees this, please don't tell me that I'm being over dramatic. Because this is my page, I can say whatever I want about my life and you can't dictate that.
          
          Anyways, bye my little stars. Have a great day.