to start with, I am the "bastard" child of a 15 year old girl who was abused and didn't know much about what love was and I have 4 guys who could be my father.

I was adopted by a big loving family, but I still suffer from trauma even though I was 2 days old when I went into foster care.

I grew up being the youngest out of six and always seemed to ALWAYS be different then anyone else I met.

Beginning of my Freshmen year, my birth contacted me and skewed me over (long story) and caused me emotional trauma, an inability to trust anyone, and some thoughts of suicide(I even tried cutting but failed since I get this feeling of fainting or throwing up when cut or stuck with something). A year later, God dropped the most amazing man into my life who had also gone through a similar form of trauma that I went through and after a year we were able to be some what normal after getting the locked away secrets off our chests and promised never to hurt ourselves on purpose.

Life was ok for a while with a few issues with the birth family, but towards the end of my Junior year on the  Friday before  Easter of 2011, my father passed away from a heart attack and now I'm left dealing with the lost of the one family member I could trust with anything and dealing with a mother that is 3 generations behind me. 

Well, even though my life has been crap at times, I still find the joys in every corner of each day., like celebrating 3 years with my most amazing boyfriend who finds random, crazy things that just make me melt(like randomly kissing my hand or arm over and over. though in his defense of the arm kissing, he was high off of the spray paint we were using on his air soft gun. ^_^), hanging out and teaching others younger then me either art or just life lessons.

I Love art, anything japaness, having weird and different friends (people who don't fit in but are awesome as they are) and pretty much anything I'm just so weird and crazy!! :P   =^_^= Kitt-A Smile 
Luv 2 be ur friend!