Dear cherry,
I hope you're doing better, and that despite everything you're not so hard on yourself. I keep reading how you always compare your old writing and the good time you had while doing it with how you're doing now. You can't keep comparing yourself with a past version of you who hasn't gone through what you've had to deal with, and still managed to stay standing.
I'm very proud of you for being there. You're simply amazing in every way you are. So please don't stop fighting for yourself, for your loved ones, for everything that matters. I know you can do it. I believe in you.
With all my love and appreciation, I wish you all the best.