Cherry_Fe22

Current State Of Mind
          	
          	We are all in different situations. Some are in a happy place, and others are sadly in an undesirable situation. I felt the latter. The past few weeks have been tough and draining. Though I am not doing much, that is what makes it tough. Even if I want to stay still, I cannot do that anymore. I am not a teenager who has the freedom to be childish. The world has changed since the pandemic hit, but why do I feel like I was left in my pre-pandemic age? I do not understand myself sometimes and make decisions based on impulsivity. My only wish was to get old without regrets. Now, I am not sure if that will ever happen.

Cherry_Fe22

Current State Of Mind
          
          We are all in different situations. Some are in a happy place, and others are sadly in an undesirable situation. I felt the latter. The past few weeks have been tough and draining. Though I am not doing much, that is what makes it tough. Even if I want to stay still, I cannot do that anymore. I am not a teenager who has the freedom to be childish. The world has changed since the pandemic hit, but why do I feel like I was left in my pre-pandemic age? I do not understand myself sometimes and make decisions based on impulsivity. My only wish was to get old without regrets. Now, I am not sure if that will ever happen.

Cherry_Fe22

I don't enjoy school anymore.
          
          The school was my happy place. A place of laughter and tears, sometimes. I used to love going to school and learn from textbooks until I turned 18. Life is so different from what it was before I turn to legality. I have to do things that I don't enjoy and I need to enjoy them to survive. However, I am not finished with my studies. I haven't earned a degree yet. The society that I am living in has a standard that to have a better life, you need to at least have a degree. That notion made me anxious. What if I don't finish school? Will I be able to survive? How would I get my desired job? These questions made me go back to school. But I am not enjoying school anymore and it seems like I am just submitting requirements. What is supposed to be a happy place creeps the hell out of me now.