Ash'sBASS

I am going to delete all of my fanfics. I want to start new. I don't like the way I formed the stories nor do I like the stories themselves. I am going to continue writing but I will try to make better stories and focus on one or two fanfics at a time. Sorry but I just feel like this is right 

A conversation my friend and I had. It's just what I said though but I think you'll understand what he was saying
          
          I honestly don’t know if I wanna stay in band
          It puts a lot of stress on me and it isn’t making me as happy as it once did
          I’m not really unhappy just not as I used to be. It’s just makes me mad when it shouldn’t and it hurts. I don’t want to put unnessicary stress on the band when I’m not even good enough
          Betters not enough and my level was your 8th grade year
          It won’t change anything though. Dobbs is stubborn.
          You get lessons. I can’t afford that stuff. You get better because you have the privileges that I don’t. I can’t get better. I’m not given the chance.
          I don’t really think me as a person really deserve that kind of help from you. Besides, you help Maccee already and you practice a lot for yourself. 
          This isn’t excuses. I just think of myself less than. No matter how good I’ll get, I’ll always think you are better.
          Thats another thing. I probably won’t even make into honors anything honestly. Meobda last year or whenever was an accident. Probably a miscalculation. 
          I know it’s easy. But if I was good enough I wouldn’t have gotten 2nd chair. 
          Tryouts are just tests. It’s not testing your ability to play, it’s testing your ability on how good you are at taking a test. It’s just one big test that isn’t accurate what so ever. 
          It’s not really a competition. We just go and hope. We don’t know how the judge will score us.
          I really like playing. It’s nice and peaceful and gives me a sense of accomplishment. Then Isaac left.. Everything went away. 
          It all boils down to Isaac leaving. Everything now was because of him. Why I wanted to be better was for him. Then he left. Took my only sense of motivation other than just to be better for myself. 
          
          Even now, I’m motivated for him. It’s hope. Whats left of it. Justin, Isaac, and Graham is my only sense of direction

I am still grounded. Do not expect updates for a long time

Hey buddy its Courtney

Hey guys I need a favour.. my book "Love is a Never Ending Battle (A BVB Love Story)" needs help. I'm stuck at the moment. I am at the wedding part. The mother is walking down the aisle... but that's as far as I got. Does anyone know how to help?

Hey guys. I'm so sorry I don't update anymore. I have had so much on my shoulders lately. Colour/Winter Guard, band, school, sleep, emotional reconstruction, etc... I simply do not have any time anymore. I literally stay up all night doing homework, practising, and actually having time to get further ahead in various other projects. I really do try to write as often as I can but I just can't really... I'm sorry and I hope you understand

I will not be updating for a while. I just started Colour Guard at the beginning of this week and I’m there all day for the next week so I have no time to write. I hope you understand. I will try to post here and there but for the most part I will not be posting for a while. Sorry

Dear ChesterBlack, Thank you so much for reading my story! I am pretty new to writing. I hope you read more! Thank you!

YAY YOI FOLLOWED MEEEEE my family is staring at my wondering why I'm smiling lols