Haven't really written or edited anything for the past couple months, because MeNtAl HeAlTh (or what's left of it, anyway. Teehee!) is shot.
Yaaay.
After a great deal of research, (because 1: I'm a nerd, and 2: I never assume anything, because I'm not an idiot who's going to drink the bleach of ignorance) I feel I can safely conclude that I've been suffering from burnout all this time.
My gods, is THAT what it was?
Now it's also extremely likely that I have the 'tism, I'm just trying to actually get to see a specialist and get a diagnosis.
WHICH WOULD ALSO EXPLAIN WHY I FEEL LIKE I HAVE NO ENERGY LEFT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFEEE-!
..But yeah, I've been trying not to beat myself up over any of this. I'll work on my projects when my mind's as ready as my body is, because I REALLY WANT TO FINISH THOSE EDITS AND SEND THE MANUSCRIPT OFF. *Bangs head on desk*
Can you tell I'm struggling with my emotions here? UWU