Fuuuuuuuukkkkkk.
I'm not normally one to be bothered by the change in my classes, but I'm so damn close to just telling my dad that I'm gonna stay home tomorrow. I have never been on the verge of a mental breakdown like I was today.
I know exactly when it started to go downhill too. It was when my stress management class started. I legit could feel myself hyperventilating before the class started. By the time we went to the wrestling room to do the intro to that class, the teachers all stepped outside. It was so damn quiet and we were sitting lined up on the wall. I kid you not it felt like I was in the situation where you line people up to be shot.
After that my 5th period went fine, it was kinda relaxing. Then 6th period rolled around and for some reason I just had a wave of emotions pop up. I felt like breaking down and crying. I mean I stopped myself from doing so but still, the fact that I have the class with my friends/ ex boyfriends cousin and her friends didn't really help as they all stared whispering when my name was called.
Who knows, it could just be the stress of what's been happening with my mom, or the fact we put down my 15 year old dog yesterday. I guess it could just be pent up stress that's been building inside me.
All I know Is if I go tomorrow and feel the same way I might just have to either transfer classes, or take a mental day and stay home.