Childwhojumpsclouds

I just need to wake up

Why am I so lonely all the time? I hate this feeling
          
          I don’t think the meds are working

Recently it feels like a weight has been lifted from my being

The mirror is fogged
          And I did it alone
          Did you see?
          Mother, are you proud?
          That I can act on my own?
          Now I can only know of myself what you tell me

I looked behind, and for the first time it was running away from me

In another time, in another’s dream.

My first day on anti-depressants.

Maybe one day I’ll learn to like it

Bring me back a couple years from now. That’s all I’m asking. Just a few years.

I messed up
          I really, really messed up
          Nothing feels like reality again
          I might be gone for a while